Bury a Friend

10. Cry Baby

Molly

It's my day off, and I'm exhausted from crying. I don't want to do anything, but I have a paper due tomorrow. I don't know how I'm going to pull it off, seeing as every time I go to sit at my desk, I just stare at the blank wall in front me before bursting into tears.

Laying on my bed, I'm staring up at the ceiling. Billie is here, and it feels like she's trying to squeeze the air out of my waist. There isn't much pressure, but it's slowly getting tighter. And I've had enough.

"Would you please just leave me alone!" I snapped. "I'm already in enough pain without you, do you really think I need the air being squeezed out of me? Seriously! You lied to me, and you constantly scare me, so if you're going to show yourself, might as well stop wasting both of our time, and just do it!" I'm breathing heavily, no longer laying down.

She slowly appears on my bed, looking oddly sad. It's a trick. "I wasn't trying to squeeze the air from your lungs. I didn't mean it to feel that way," she states, eyebrows pinched together.

I laugh, "You really think I'll believe you? You even lied about Hansol cheating, and you're the reason he won't talk to me," I countered. I know that things ended between Hansol and I because of the distance he was giving me, not because he was cheating. I broke up with him because of the distance, but she still made me feel like crap when I started to suspect cheating. I just needed someone else to blame, because it was too painful to realize that it was his fault, and that he didn't even try and fight for me.

"I did lie, but we both know why you really broke up with him. You can't blame that on me, especially since you didn't believe me for a second," she said defensively, sitting on the edge of my bed. She was now in front of me, so I had to look down at her.

I knew she was right, but I wasn't ready to back down yet. "What do you want from me? I've done nothing to you!" Tears started to fall. She stood up and walked over to me, making me flinch out of fear. Then I was angry again. Why does she make me feel like this? Surprised, she stepped back, and then she was angry.

"You're right. You've done nothing wrong. It's all my fault. It's my fault that you're sad. It's my fault that you're alone. And it's my fault that either of us are here in this situation to begin with," at this point, she's breathing heavy.

Her eyes widen when she notices me cowering away from her. She starts, "I-I-I-," then she's gone 

And I break down, again.

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Hey Lovelies! Early update because I'd feel bad if I left you hanging for a week, so here you go!

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