H U R T S • L I K E • H E L L 《Jaewoo》

T H A N K • Y O U

(Just a warning it gets kinda like graphic i guess near the end so read with caution)

Jungwoo's POV

I walked into the bathroom placing all the clothing down onto the closed toilet lid and began opening the package that was on the top, I unfolded it and saw it was the top I liked the most. It was black and had a small snoopy image on the pocket and on the back it had a larger snoopy image with the name at the bottom, before I was on the streets and was with my past relationship HE would always buy me snoopy dolls cos HE knew I loved them and have for most my life so even though it now brings back bad memories I will always love this cartoon dog.

I took off my (Jaehyuns) jumper and replaced it with the new one, it fit much better than what any of Jaehyuns have so far which is a bummer but can be lived with seening as Jaehyun was kind enough to even think about doing all of this for me.

After opening another package that had the jeans in and putting them on I left the bathroom and returned to Jaehyuns room where he was sitting on the bed waiting looking out the window but soon looked up as I enter a huge smile over taking his whole face his eyes lighting up instantly

"They look great on you Jungwoo" he meaningfully said looking me up and down I shifted shyly fiddling with my fingers as he complemented how I looked

"Thank you for buying me them Jaehyun I love them" I replied he chuckled "that's alright go on go try on the others now" and I did I changed my clothes into new ones and continuously showed Jaehyun how they looked and received heart fluttering compliments everytime

I think i can start trusting him...

After the last clothing was tried on Jaehyun took us downstairs and back to the living room where John was setting up the monopoly board and restarting it from when me and him played earlier this morning

"Okay pick your character and lets start this" Jaehyun said as we both sat on the floor around the board that was on the coffee table

I picked the duck while Jaehyun picked the car and we begain i went first in rolling the dice and moving the amount displayed followed by Jaehyun doing the same

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Hours passed, it was pitch black outside and we had just finished the game, the results not changing

"Right food then bed and no more monopoly its just gonna drive you insane with how bad you are, you should just give up" Jaehyun sassily said before walking out the sound of him and John conversing in the kitchen

I sighed sadly my sight clouded by unshed tears, taking a deep breath(e?) and blinking away the tears while packing the game away

To be honest i felt shitty.

I was being so stupid getting upset over loosing a game and getting upset over something as pathetic as how threatening and familliar Jaehyuns tone sounded and the harsh words he said it was stupid but it just all reminded me of how HE used to treat me when these kind of things happened

The memories all flashed in my mind like a movie, tears once again clouded my vision as i started to shake and my breathing became short and painful i curled in a ball trying to be as quiet as possible not wanting HIM to come in  cos..

He was gonna come back in and hurt me..

He was gonna punish me..

He's gonna come back and abuse me till i pass out from blood loss..

The fear i felt got worse as i heard foot steps thudding closer and closer

He's gonna punish me..

He's gonna hurt me..

He gonna kill me..

The last thing i knew before blacking out was his voice calling out to me and the hard surface colliding with my head and shoulder.

His kindness was a lie

I didn't deserve to be saved

I don't deserve to be here..

I deserve to die