The Sun & His Moon

Part 1

Cans point of view

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Day 1

He left me standing there, crying outside the IC building. I started to feel weak in all of my body, however my heart felt heavy and my whole body started to turn cold.

This moment was obviously going to haunt me for weeks. The cold air hit my face and I realized I had started running. Before I had the chance to register my own movements I realized I was in the middle of the football field. I collapsed to the ground in the middle of the field, with tears streaming down my face and an unbearable ache in my heart made this 10x worse than I thought it would be.

Day 7

A week has passed and I haven't been able to sleep without waking up with a nightmare about Tin leaving me. However this morning when my mom saw me she just let out a sigh and said.

"Can I can't stand seeing you like this anymore. You need to go to the doctor. I've already made an appointment for you."

I didn't have much of a choice so of course I went to the appointment. As I was there my friend P'Kit was standing close to the counter talking to one of the nurses.

P'Kit saw me and a frown came onto his face.

"Ai'Can... What happened to you... Are you sick? What's going on... Why do you look like a kicked puppy?"

"he... Left"

"oh..."

Day 14

The image of his face still flashed through my mind. The hurt in his eyes and the pain in his voice when he left that day, was everything I could think of. I haven't even seen him after that day.

Every day at football practice I would look up at the stands to see if he was watching but yet again I was disappointed when I couldn't see him sitting there next to Ai'Pete.

Due to my lack of sleep and my ongoing panic attacks I had huge dark circles around my eyes. And due to my lack of attention during today's practice I was now on the ground. I had taken a hit to my head by the ball and was just laying on the ground all numb not even bothered to get back up.

"Ai'Can... Ai'Can... Are you okay?"

"ugh... No"

"Do you need any help?"

"No"

Can't you just see that I don't want to do this anymore... I can't even do the thing that used to make me happy, or be with the person who made me feel like I was the luckiest person alive.

I just close my eyes and hope to be left alone...

"Ai'Ae... Can you go get P'No?"

I'm quitting the team... I can't even focus so why should I keep pulling my team to the ground.

P'No came walking up to me and sat down near me.

"What did you want to say Ai'Can?"

"P'... I wanna quit the team... I can't keep up with you anymore, I can't focus and I keep slowing you down... I'm sorry..."

"Ai'Can..."

I couldn't listen to his argument because I knew what I was saying was true. So I got up and left.

Day 27

It had been 27 days 5 hours and 37 minutes since Tin left... Why did I keep track of the time... I don't even know myself. I just know that I miss him and... I... Think he was something very important to me...

I heard a knock on my door and Ai'Ae stuck his head inside my room.

"Ai'Can... Do you have some time? Ai'Pete and I would like to talk to you for a bit."

"Yeah... Sure just come inside."

We spent 4 hours in the room, just talking about what had happened and how Ai'Pete and Ai'Ae didn't like the effect it had on me...

Tin Point of View
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ay 30

"Ai'Tin you really look like a train wreck..." Ai'Pete said looking at me.

Honestly I had been like this since that day. Since I left him there standing. Why didn't I just accept him as a friend for now...

Because I love him...

"Ai'Pete... Have you seen him lately? Is... Is he okay?"

"No... He's not.. He suffers from severe panic attacks and hasn't slept well the past 3 weeks... It's like seeing a zombie... He even quit the team..."

A pang in my chest... My baby isn't doing well at all and I thought I was suffering...

I miss him... I want him and I need him...

"oh... "

Ai'Pete looked at me with sad eyes...

"you know he's not here today... He was admitted to the hospital last night... Because he collapsed and fell down the stairs..."

"He What... Is he okay?"

"He got a concussion and broke his left leg and his right wrist but I think he is going to be okay... They gave him some medication to let him sleep because he can't seem to relax on his own."

"Oh... I'll... I'm sorry I have to go now Ai'Pete... I'll see you tomorrow right?...."

"yeah see you"

I went home and locked myself in my room... I felt nauseated and didn't want to see anyone... My baby was hurting... I need to do something... But what?

Another few days passed so fast and it was now 5 weeks since I last saw Ai'Can... I need to see him... So I did what I should have done already. I went to the Sport Science building just to get a glimpse of him. I just needed to see him.

He was sitting by a table in the corner of the canteen he looked like he hadn't been sleeping, eating and he was definitely not the cheerful person he usually was... What have I done... This is all my fault... But I love him too much to just be his friend... I want to be so much more... I want to hold him in my arms and hug him... I want to kiss him and tell him how much I love him.

I don't just want him... I need him.

I couldn't just let him live like this... I need to do something...

I look up and see his seniors by another table and go to them... I see his P'No and grab his arm and drag him away from the canteen...

"P'Techno... Can you do me a favor... Here take this money and take Ai'Can for a meal okay? Or in general just do something with him... Just don't let him know I paid you the money..."

Techno looked at me like I was some kind of weird guy... But honestly I'm just so in love with Ai'Can.