The Sun & His Moon

Part 3

Petes Point of View

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I slam my hands to the table.

"We need a plan"

I look Ai'Ae in the eyes and continue.

"I can't just sit here and watch both of them tear themselves apart like this. One of them feels like the world abandoned him and the other is too afraid of realizing that he let his world down."

I sigh and see my boyfriend shake his head in amusement. I sit down again and pull out a notebook and a pen. We have to get up with a plan before this goes too far. Which I realize it already have... Because they both blame themselves for something that hurt both of them. Something only they can fix if they believe in themselves and each other.

"Did you know, Ai'Tin told me that every night after he realized his feelings for Ai'Can he wrote in his book a small poem to him... I want him to read them to Ai'Can. Because I also know Ai'Can wrote to him as well. I want then to truly understand what they mean to each other. And I hope some day they will be able to."

"Ah maybe that's what the small book Ai'Can is taking with him all the time is... He always wear a faint smile when he looks down at it."

2 hours pass and we look at each other satisfied with our plan to get Tin and Can to confess their love for one another.

" okay so here's the deal, you go talk to Ai'Can during lunch time tomorrow no buts or ifs I rely on you to help me out with this thing okay I'm sick of watching cheerful and hyper Can being depressed and sad. I will go talk to Ai'Tin which means I have to go to his home... I promise there's nothing to be afraid of or get jealous over okay I need you to do this and don't say a word to Ai'Pond about this he'll probably just ruin everything... "

The next day comes and we separated after eating breakfast together. I first go to my classes and during lunch I drive to see Ai'Tin... I also have to give him the lecture notes...

" Ai'Tin, can I come in? I have to talk to you... "

" yeah just go in... I'll be down in a minute.."

"hey... Ehm here's the notes... And how are you? Still down with the fever? Or is it getting better? I also have to ask you about something.. How is the situation going I know you still love him but is it still hard for you to forgive him for not being able to... You know... "

" no, I'm not mad at him if that's what you want to know... I love him with all my heart and I think he's the only one I'll ever love like that... He's like my own personal sun. You know, just seeing him makes me smile, hearing his laugh makes my day and seeing him happy is what makes me wonder why I let him go... I regret not staying by him even if just as a friend. I regret every harsh word and just thinking about the feelings he gave me makes my heart flutter. But I'm never going to be able to ha e any of these feelings ever again because I doubt he ever wants to see me again. I went to see him the other day and I felt like I had been punched in the gut. He looked so broken and sad and it hurt me because I didn't want to see him like that. "

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Ae Point of View

I did as Pete told me to and went to eat lunch with Ai'Can. It was like seeing a ghost, it breaks my heart as his friend to see him like this and I really hope our plan will work out. I think Ai'Can needs Tin in his life to function like he used to. Tin was like the moon to him. It's hard for me to say this since I don't really want Ai'Can to be with someone like Tin but I have seen how much it hurt him when he disappeared from his life.

I need them to be honest with each other.
Let's get this started for real....

"Ai'Can do you want to have lunch or something with Ai'Pete and me tomorrow. I know it's Saturday tomorrow and all that but we want to make sure you are doing well and we can sit down and talk about it more and I promise we'll listen to everything you have to say okay? "

"Yeah okay, how about that little Cafe by the square where we used to buy our Chai lattes earlier. I promise I'll meet you there around 11"

"okay see you then..."

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Can Point of View

I'm sitting on my bed... My sister is sitting on the couch in my room... She had found my journal... It's too late to deny anything right now as she had read every single poem I had written to Tin...

I'm sorry... Ai'Tin... That I wasn't able to tell you...

My last poem was simple yet it might have described our entire relationship...

I'm not perfect
I make mistakes
I hurt people
But when I say I'm sorry
I truly mean it

I was going to write another poem when my sister came into the room and I was not able to hide the journal before she saw it...

So I debated on whether I should finish it or not...

Honestly it is kind of funny how I'm able to write my feelings down on a piece of paper but I have a hard time saying them to the person I love...
I want to be able to tell him those words even though they seem very cliché and way too girly for an athlete like me.... Oh who am I kidding I'm a huge softball and we all know it...

The truth? I like you. A lot. You make me happy. You make me laugh. You're smart. You're different. You're a little crazy, and awkward, and your smile alone can make me day.

You can light up my whole day just by being you.
You're the happiness in my life and you can make me smile in a second. I really just want you to know that I love you.