The Sun & His Moon

Part 5 1/2

You weren't just a star to me, you were my whole damn sky.

Cans point of view

As we went back to Tins place I started feeling nervous. It had been so long since I last saw him. It pained me to think about him being hurt because of me.

I was trying to get the sweat on my palms off on my pants. I think he might have noticed it, because it wasn't long before he took my hand in his and gave me a calming look.

I smiled back at him and knew I was safe. Because I was finally with him. It was all okay.

"So what are we going to do? Because I think we both need to sit down and talk about what happened between us."

When we got there I was shocked... When Tin told me he got himself an apartment, I thought he meant something like the one Ai'Pete live in, not this thing that can fit my whole damn home inside it...

We got inside and Ai'Tin took me into the living room where we sat down on the couch.

"Can... I'm sorry, for leaving you that day... I never meant to hurt you like that... I was selfish and I should have thought about how you would feel in a situation like that. I'm so sorry."

I could hear how his voice almost cracked and I took his face in my hands." Hey.... Look at me Ai'Tin"

His eyes looked happy yet sad when they met mine.

"What matters is that we love each other, and we have each other right now. Now let's just sit down and talk it out because I think both of us need to hear the others side."

We sat there for 2 hours just talking, telling each other about how we had been feeling that day and the 2 months following. At the end of our conversation I took Tins hand in mine and brought it to my face. I didn't even know why I did it but it was calming just to have it close to my cheek.

"Can... Do you want to go on a date with me?"

"A d-date?"

"Yeah you know, me and you, spending time with each other... Alone"

"Yes, Tin... I know what a date is... And... I would love to. But only because it's you."

"Thank you, Can"

"For what?"

"For coming into my life."

"Tin... I should be the one to thank you. Because I wouldn't be even the slightest verge of recovery without you being in my life again." I could feel the heat rise to my face and my eyes darted away from his.

I was embarrassed, I had never said something like that to anyone before... Because Tin had been my first love, and I was not really the romantic type of person. And because it's true. Even though he was the reason I started to get depressed, and the reason I lost myself. He was also the real reason I started to come back to the old happy me. Thanks to him I had spent more time with my friends these last few days than I had done since he left.

Enough with my sappy thoughts tho... I try to break the awkward silence that occurred by looking at Tin and pulling one of my "cheerful Can" antics...

"Ai'Tin, can I make you something?"
I don't think I ever told him but I'm kind of decent in the kitchen and I want to share it with him.

"Yeah sure" he give me one of the smiles that I love so much.

I walk into the kitchen and find make him a little dish I usually make if I want to cheer up a little bit or don't know what else to make...

I slice a couple of bell peppers into dices, and do the same thing with an onion. I can feel Tin following my every move with his look. I cut a few hotdog /sausage things into slices and fry them in the pan along with the onion and peppers, then about the last minute of frying the food I put some ketchup into the pan as well and mix evenly together the ingredients. I know it's not that big of a deal but I think Tin will like this little thing.

The time feels like it's non-existent when I'm with Tin but I know it's starting to get late when I look out of the living room window and see the moon outside in the sky, there's not a lot of stars on the sky tonight, or maybe it just looks like it is less because of the city lights.

"You know... The moon is my favorite thing in the sky. Even though it looks so cold and lonely, it so much more than that. But most importantly if the moon didn't have the sun it wouldn't shine so bright in the dark sky. Beautiful and lovely because it's not alone at all." I say and turn to Tin.

" you know you're like my moon. From afar you look cold and lonely, but as I get closer I can see how much love you give to the people in your heart. "

" The only person in my heart is you Ai'Can... And if what you said was true then you're my own Sun."

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"I should probably be heading home soon, it's getting late Ai'Tin."

"Can't you just stay here for the night? I don't want anything to happen with you on your way home"

"Okay... But just because it's actually starting to get pretty late."

I send a text to my mom saying that I will be staying at a friend's house for the night and that she should not be worried. Then I look at my boyfriend oh wow that's the first time I really thought about him actually being my boyfriend now...

I look at Tin and take my hand into his extended one. Then I follow him toward his bedroom...

"T-Tin... Do you have a shirt I can borrow?"

"Yeah but are you sure you will be needing it..." he said with a raised brow...

"Ai'A-hole I didn't agree to stay over for you to do that..."

"Relax I'm just joking with you. Here take this." he hand me a navy colored t-shirt with TC written on the front.

I take the shirt from his hand and turn my back to him. I quickly change out of my clothes and put the shirt on. It's way too big for me so it's making it look like I'm wearing a dress but seeing how tin isn't that much bigger than me I wonder why it's so big.

Oh well never mind, tomorrow is Sunday so I'm not worried about the classes or anything.

Tomorrow I'll just spend the whole day with Tin. Without any worries of what will happen later down the road.