The Sun & His Moon

Part 4

Side note before I start... There's parts in Tins point of view where he doesn't say Ai before Ae and Petes names this is either because it's his thoughts or he is being a disrespectful ass as usual... 😂 😂 😂 But let's face it we all love him none the less.

Cans point of view

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I'm so stupid... Why didn't I realize it sooner, it's so similar to the feeling I have towards my friends but yet it so much different, it's so much more...

I realize I'm still sitting on my bed with my sister right next to me, she had moved over from the couch and was now reaching out to hug me...

"Soo, he's the reason... Right? P'Tin is the real reason you're losing yourself like this... No wonder you made all those grimaces when I mentioned him with anyone else..."

I give her a faint smile, I don't want to talk to her about this stuff. She'll probably say I'm too ugly for Ai'Tin anyway.

This whole thing ended in another sleepless night. Around 3 am I got too tired to stay awake, but I didn't sleep for long before I jolted awake because of another nasty nightmare.

The time started to get close to 10 am and I started to get ready to meet with Ai'Ae and Ai'Pete. It was the first time I had agreed to meet with anyone like this after that day. If not counted with the day P'No dragged me with him to get grilled chicken.

It took me 10 minutes to get to the café, the pair was there already and I felt a little sulky because I also wanted a carefree and beautiful relationship like that... I was just standing there fo a little bit watching the happiness in front of me.

I pushed the door open and went in, I sat down in a chair in front of the two and gave them a small smile. I had missed this, missed my friends, but they reminded me of him. I felt like I was forcing the smile and dropped it.

"what did you want to talk about? Ai'Ae and Ai'Pete?" I almost had to fight the urge to just get the hell out of there... Just because I already knew the answer to the question I just asked.

I look up from the table again and see Ai'Pete smiling at me.

"How are you? Ai'Can."

"I'm hurt... I was so confused for so long. I regretted my choice of words that day from the moment he left me. At first I just thought I wanted a friend... But what I came to realize is that I truly love him..." I felt the tears press onto my eyes.

"Ai'Can..."

"You know... That day, he asked me to be his boyfriend... I was just so confused... I regret so much that I said no, because I know now how much I love him... After a week my mom even dragged me to the doctor because I didn't sleep, I didn't eat much. I got medications and they helped me sleep, but I was still just so broken and scared of everyone else leaving me that I pushed everyone away. I'm sorry Ai'Ae... I never told you the true reason I left the team... I was afraid to say that I was hurt, and being in a place I used to be happy, a place I used to have him beside me... It broke me to be there but it's been worse not being there because it gives me a lot of time to over think... "

"Oh... So that's why"

"The truth is that I fell in love with Ai'Tin, I fell in love with every single part of him. How he gets small wrinkles on his forehead when he thinks to much, or how he tapps with his pen on the table when he reads in his book. I love how he always tease me, even though he calls me stupid he does it with a smile and I can't stop thinking about how handsome he is while he smiles. I like him best like that, when I know I am the reason he have those small smiles, even if it's just for a second... "