Anniversaries- LAMS AU (Completed)

Chapter five

^ Also me, I don't know what I did here . . . I mean- yeah. ENJOY 

Alex's POV

I opened my eyes slowly as it felt like they were so heavy- I couldn't keep them open. I felt like I was hit by a train- the pain was unbearable. I also realised I was cuddled by someone- John. Then as I could feel my skin against the sheets. I was naked. Shit.   

I put my hand on my face in anger, I was angry at myself. Ugh- why to fuck this up, again? I slowly tried to get out of John's arms when I heard him mumble something. He was waking up and it was too late to act as if I was asleep. FUCK. I didn't want this conversation. How, why? I didn't remember anything from last night, that last thing I remember- I was mad? sad? about something but I don't know what. My head hurt so much. I guess this is how a hangover hurts, huh?

"Alex..." Laurens said my name in his cute, grumpy morning voice. I laid back again hitting my head on the pillow. We both stared at each other blushing with crimson on our cheeks.  I knew we would have that talk- the talk I really didn't want to have. 

"Yes?" I asked him trying to act innocent as if I didn't know what was happening. 

"Please, forgive me," He said but I was confused. Why was he sorry? Then I remembered. He kissed Eliza. Then- why did he... I turned around to look at the ceiling with watery eyes. 

" I- why? I... I don't remember anything" I said at the edge of tears, I was so ashamed of myself. What was going through my mind? 

"I kinda figured- since you drank a lot- I mean a lot, lot" He joked a little with a half smile on his face but as this situation was serious his handsome smile faded. 

"How-... much did I drink?" I hesitated trying not to sound like a fool- he probably already thought of me as a fool, a stupid, worthless fool.  

"I- no more than 15 shots- I think or around this number" I was surprised, shocked in a bad way and I felt guilty. He looked at me with care and kissed my forehead as I cried. I didn't know what else to do or say- so I just let the tears drown me. I covered my face with embarrassment as he hugged me. 

"Hey- It's ok. I'm sorry- I should've not let it happen" I loved his sweet and charming voice- it always calmed me down. 

--------- (Time skip brought to you by sobbing Alex) 

   I didn't know what to do with myself- so I started writing again. I didn't know what to write about so- I wrote about John. Everything comes back to him- one way or another.  I tried to forget about what happened and forget about my past. No luck there either. I just felt like I was running in circles non-stop. 

No matter how tired I was- I'd still keep on running. I was running to nowhere. I felt so helpless. John was out somewhere with Laff and Herc- I'm guessing. I was stuck there alone in the room talking to myself- again. 

I was used to being alone- but when John came around, he changed everything. I suddenly stopped liking being alone. I wanted him. Then, I gave up and went to bed falling asleep as fast as I could think. 

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I woke up to the sound of my alarm- Monday. It was 7 a.m. giving me a lot of time to prepare since my first class starts at 9 a.m. I tried not waking up John but it was too late as he looked at me with his sleepy adorable eyes disoriented. He asked me what time it was so I replied 'SHOWTIME' but then told him the real hour. I took a warm shower which woke me up, then made myself a coffee and a small ham 'n' cheese toast. I felt so ready for my classes, luckily my first class was my favourite- law. 

After I finished eating I got back to our bedroom and prepared my backpack checking if I had everything I need- 

- laptop 'check' 

- notebooks 'check' 

- pens  'check' 

- planner 'check' 

- my favourite book (which was Miranda's biography) 'check' 

- some paper 'check' 

- additional pencils 'check' 

- quill 'check' 

- ink 'check' 

  I reread the whole list and rechecked everything and it looked like I had truly everything. I sat on the bed dreaming in excitement and when the time came I kissed John on the forehead and headed for classes. John started at 12- so he had plenty of time. 

I walked into the class which was quite empty looking at the time, soon I noticed a person I knew. I was happy knowing that I wasn't all alone. It was Burr! I sat next to him and said a cheerful 'Good morning!' but by his answer, he had a bad day- like always. 

Not long after the class filled with people our professor came in. 

"Good morning class, I am Mr Washington and I'll be your law professor for the rest of this year" He introduced himself, he seemed like a person who is nice but can also not be so nice. I listen to him with a lot of interest until someone knocked on the door. 

"What'd I miss?" The guy asked the class with a snobby look on his face. That guy again? Was that some kind of his sentence he'd always ask? I rolled my eyes as he sat close to me. Great. What was this guy's problem? 

"Heyyy" He leaned towards me trying to look attractive as he smiled at me. He's kinda hot. I smiled back at him in confusion trying to read him. 

"Hi?" I said trying to look nice, I didn't want to make enemies right on the first day. 

" I'm Thomas but you can call me Jefferson or whatever. You?" He introduced himself proudly,  I couldn't help but blush a little. 

"I'm Alexander Hamilton- it's nice to meet you," I said trying to hide the blush. When he saw me blushing I couldn't stop noticing his cheeks having a light shade of pink. We talked for a while but then turned back to listen to Mr Washington. Throughout the whole lesson, we sent each other notes- he turned out to be so sweet. Why didn't I like him a first? 

"So- here's my number, and if you need anything... I'm always there. Maybe we could hang out sometime, love?" He said passing me his phone number which he wrote earlier. I couldn't help blushing at the word 'love'. He was sweet but somehow sour. Like he was a devil in disguise, acting all sweet- but that didn't stop me from liking him. 

After all the class, I put his number into my phone and went back to my dorm. I fell on my bed and blushed a little. John wasn't in our dorm yet- so I figured that he still had classes. When he came back, he looked really mad. 

"Laurens? Are you alright?" I asked worried about him, he looked at me with anger in his eyes and took a deep breath before speaking. 

"N-nothing" He lied to me looking straight into my eyes. Why, why did he lie to me? Wasn't I enough?

"How was your day?" John changed the subject erasing all the anger from before. 

"It was good- I met a nice guy," I said looking dreamy and blushing a little bit, but then I saw the sadness in his heart. Is he jealous?

"Oh- W-what's his n-name?' He stuttered keeping up the fake smile, I felt guilty telling him about it because it was Harding looking at him while he was crying on the inside. I cared about him. 

"Jefferson" 

//Wordcount: 1339(without author's note) Sorry guys! I feel like this chapter is SHIT. I promise the next one will be a lot better- it's just I've lost a bit of motivation today because I've had a bad day in general. SOWWY. And don't worry- for everyone who hates jamilton, IK this book is lams but you'll have to just wait and see. trust me. Also, thank you so much for almost 100 reads <3 it means so much to me! Also sorry for the short chapter. 

Anyway- thank you and have a good day/night. 

-T