The Run Away

Chapter Six

I began to shake. I'm so confused. I don't know what else to do. 

Thomas breaks the silence. "Look you don't have to tell me right now you have 18 hours to decide, but before you do anything, outway the pros and cons. You will leave everything behind but you will also gain so much more. You will be classified as a runaway if you come. In the future you will come back to your adoptive parents, I promise. If you stay here you will be putting them in danger. People will come for you and they will go through anyone to get what they want. So leave, come back tomorrow before 9 and leave with me, or stay. The choice is yours", Thomas says walking away. 

With the words leaving his mouth me and Carson were out the front door. Walking down the steps I hear him mumble something. Me being the scared bitch I am I choose to just ignore it, like I never heard anything. 

I don't know what to think. Here I am at 4 in the morning walking in the woods with Carson Beck. When just minutes before I was told I was born to have kids with him. Who does Thomas think he is? Breaking me from my thoughts Carson grabbes my hand. 

"I'm sorry. I know this is a lot, but do you want to know what I've decided to do", he asks. I stop and look up at him. Those eyes, those dazzling eyes beaming down at me. I just can't let myself keep this going. It's just all too much. What if I leave and get hurt or better yet what if I stay and hurt everyone I love. My head hurts from thinking so much. I cant be rude but I can't do this right now. So, here goes nothing. 

"Thomas I don't care to hear your decision. I know that's really rude of me, trust me, I know. But if I know what you've decided to do, I might change what I know in my heart that I should do. The second we walked into that house I've felt different and I know damn well you have too. So If you tell me what you want to do I know I will follow you. Therefore I need to just think about it and follow my heart... I'm the weird kid that sits in the back of the classroom, this isn't me", I say throwing my hands up. 

He starts walking. "This is you. Your eyes glow just like mine, our bodies do the same thing, we have the same blood running through our veins. So don't ever say this isn't you, because if it isn't you, then it's not me. And I need this", He says grabbing my hand.

I look at his face, it's full of sadness. What did I do? I want more than anything to say I'm sorry, but nothing comes out. 

Finally breaking the silents. "whatever you decide I won't judge you, nor will I shame you. I will be respectful no matter what. You do what you think is right and I'll do the same", he says. 

I continue walking with a slight smile on my face. Taking in deep breathes so I don't cry.  

We reach my door at about 5 o'clock and I go to turn the door handle when Carson grabs my wrist, turns me around, and shoves me against the door kissing me. I don't move away I just kiss him back. This feels right. He slowly pulls away. I look at him in shock. 

"If this was the last time I see or talk to you, I just wanted to do that one more time", he smiles and turns to walk away.

I smile and go into the house. The rest of the morning was a blur. I got around 3 hours of sleep so I'm doing great. Waking up at 10 o'clock no one was home. Moms at work and Andrews probably at Bryson's.  

So I'm left alone with nothing but my thoughts.