The Run Away

Chapter Seven

I open my eyes and look around. I can't help but feel sorry for myself. How did I get to this point? Just yesterday I was sitting around playing with my little brother; now all of that can just be taking away from me. I want to leave, to go somewhere that I fit in. Yet the other half of me wants to stay and spend as much time with my brother and mom as I can. How do I decide to leave my life here, or go somewhere else with a complete stranger? I want nothing more than to scream, running, pull my hair out, and cry but nothings happening. Somehow my brain has accepted all of this, and I can't. How does that work?

 I need air. 

I walk outside and see the neighbors sitting on their porch. I smile and wave, as they do the same. 

Sitting on the swing set I see a single butterfly lands on my hand. I can't stop the smile as it appears on my face. Is this a sign? Should I go with Thomas? What if Carson chooses to stay? God, why didn't I let him tell me what he decided to do? 

NO. NO. Brylee you can do this. 

If I stay here I would be putting Andrew in danger but if I leave I'll be putting myself in danger. 

Then that's it. I've made my mind up, I have to leave. 

I look down and see tears hitting the tops of my hand... This is the hardest decision I've ever had to make. I know this is the best thing for not only me but for everyone around me but why do I feel like this? I look up to see little raindrops hitting my head. The rains cold but soothing at the same time. The wind starts to pick up. I stop crying as what feels like the sky falls. 

Looking out the window as I shut the door the swing falls over. I can't help but think this is because of me. Did I do this? I have to get out of this place. 

Minutes later I find myself running faster than I've ever run. Moments after stopping I find myself standing in front of Bryson's door. Do I knock or walk away? 

I can't see him knowing I'll just be leaving. He's going to hate me for not saying goodbye. I look through the window and see his smiling. 'he'll be okay' is all I can think. 

I drop as it thunders. I almost forgot it was storming. Turning to look around I finally realize I just ran seven miles. I didn't feel any of it.

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Getting back to the house at 5 o'clock due to stopping at Bailey's diner. I've stopped crying and decided to face the facts... I don't belong here. 

I want more than anything to text Carson but I don't want to know that he chose to pick popularity over what he should know is right. 

Sitting on the couch I slowly get up and make my way up the stairs. I haven't looked at the book in almost 8 hours, I forgot all about Carson's book. It's sad that I might not ever get to see it. 

It's time... time to pack. 

I walk over to my mom's room and started looking for the charm necklace I gave her the day I was adopted. It was in the top of the jewelry box. I'm going to miss them so much, but it's too late to change my mind. I can't put them in danger. 

I slowly took off the bracelet that matched and put in on her nightstand with a picture of the three of us. 

Now for the moment, I've been dredging since I made my decision. 

Opening up Andrews door I see photos of us everywhere. Opening and closing my eyes fast I ask myself the same question will I ever see them again. 

This is my family. How does one go about leaving their loved ones? Tears start rolling down my cheek and I smile. I don't know why but I can't wipe the smile off my face. I'm going to miss him so much but I can't wait to see him when I get back. Like really... I haven't even made it out of the door but I'm already happy about coming back. 

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Walking through the room with my heavy bag on my back I look around. This has been my home for as long as I can remember. I bounced from foster home to foster home. Then, I met Ashley and Andrew. It was a rough start but I come to love them. This was supposed to be my forever home. 

I close my eyes really fast trying to keep my tears away. Looking around the room I glace at the clock. How in the world is it already 7:48? I have to be there at 9. It's going to take me forever to get there. 

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Walking down the long road I can't help but feel empty. How does one go about leaving everything they know? I miss my family already. 

How am I going to do this? what if I get there and I hate it? I need a break already. 

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Carsons Pov 

I turn the corner to walk done berling circle and fog come out of nowhere. It's just like my dreams. I haven't had this happen to me in months. 

By this time the fog had overcome me and I find myself running. I reach the end of the road and I come to a silver necklace in the middle of the road. Picking it up I see the word mom on the back of it. Stuffing it into my pocket I began running again. 

Finally reaching the wood line I began to feel different... I began to feel free. 

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Brylee's Pov

Tears are running down my face as the shadows overcome me. I see the same wood line from before. I thought I was going to be walking around all night. 

For comfort, I reach for the necklace that I put around my neck that I gave my mom. reaching around my entire neck... the necklace is gone. NO. NO. this can't be happening. I need it. I look around but don't see it. The necklace could be anywhere. I've been out here walking for 40 minutes. 

Just now realizing that I've been walking around for 40 minutes. It's already 8:28. I have to be there in less than an hour. I push the necklace back in my mind and began running... that is until I reach the house. It looks even creepier than before. Talking myself up I reach the top of the steps. 

I find myself nocking... Thomas opens the door. 

"I was beginning to think you were a no show", He said with a smirk. 

 I give him a worried look. What have I got myself into?