School has failed me because my brain isn't the same as other kids' brains. I'm sorry that I'm wired differently, I can't help it. I'm sorry that I needed help with staying alive. I'm sorry that I have fallen into pits of apathy and depression. I'm sorry that I wanted to die because I felt I had to reason to live. I'm sorry that my brain decided to fuck up the skin on my body. I'm sorry for all the trauma I went through. I'm sorry that I'm not doing enough, because these Fs on my report card show me that I will never be enough, no matter how hard I try, no matter how many times I've cried, no matter how much blood I've shed. It devalues absolutely everything. All the hard work. The empire I've built was destroyed by those few Fs. Just a few letters can destroy a whole empire in an instant. And here I sit. Here I sit in the devastating ruins of a once mighty empire.
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Random*may be triggering* just my deep thoughts 💭 Has some poetry randomly scattered in this along with philosophical ideas/questions. Lots of questions. Edit: I wrote this in my "I think I'm smarter than everyone" phase in middle school so I am WELL AWA...
