Slowly Falling

Chapter 3

{Perrie}

I tried to avoid Zayn as best I possibly could since he'd asked me out on a date. I mean, for one thing, he'd only known me for 4 hours when he asked. I think that's a little bit desperate. I don't know. And secondly, my relationship history isn't exactly what you'd call perfection. I wouldn't even call it great. Or good for that matter.

Let me explain. See, I got my first boyfriend when I was in high school. I was 15 and his name was Josh Michaels. We were the couple of year 11. Everyone knew about us. We dated for around 6 months, and it came to my 16th birthday, and Josh tried coming on to me. Of course, I rejected him. I wasn't a slut. But Josh wanted sex. Sex was all he wanted, and I learned that he'd do anything to get it. So he abused me. He raped me. And he threatened that if I told anybody what he did, he'd kill me. 

That's why I don't trust guys. Josh was my first and only boyfriend. I've never wanted to date after that happened to me. Of course, I was attracted to them. I was attracted to Zayn. But I couldn't date him. What if he did the same to me? What if he hurt me? What if he just fools me around like Josh did the first six months of our relationship? I'd never know. 

Day three of work wasn't too bad. I craved a cigarette at lunch time so I went down to the fire escape, and Zayn was already there. I wanted to turn back, but I hadn't had a smoke in almost 24 hours and I craved it more than I wanted too. 

"Perrie, I'm really sorry about the other night. I just really like you. I really really like you" Zayn said, stepping towards me slowly. 

"Zayn, what are you doing" I questioned, not making any eye contact. He continued to walk until he was standing in front of me. He stopped and placed his rough hand on my cheek, and softly stroked it with his thumb.

"I really really like you, Perrie Edwards" he almost whispered, before leaning down towards my lips. What was he trying to do? Kiss me, obviously. Stupid Perrie. But why? I rejected him. 

"Zayn I can't" I said, stepping away from him and turning my back. 

"Perrie" he sighed. 

"No Zayn. I told you. I don't just let people in like that" I mumbled, taking a long drag on my cigarette. 

"Why?" he asked. 

"Why what?" I answered.

"Why have you got your guards up? I'm guessing because you had a bad experience before. I get that you're hurt from that. But not everyone is the same as that. You can trust me Perrie. I care about you" Zayn said. I felt his presence behind me, and his hands softly grabbed on to my waist. I turned around and Zayn's chocolate brown eyes stared into my blue orbs. I wish he wasn't so attractive. I wanted to put my guards down with him, I really did. But I couldn't. "I just want to make you happy" he whispered. He tried again, bringing his lips closer to mine. I wanted to kiss him so badly. But I also wanted to pull away. 

Before I made my decision on what to do, I felt Zayn's extremely soft lips touch mine. Instantly, I felt fireworks go off in my brain. His lips were magical, and so inviting. I felt one of Zayn's hands leave my waist, and come up to my neck, as he deepened the kiss. It was the most perfect first kiss I'd ever had. Even though he was only my second first kiss. His fingers ran through my combed blonde hair, as his lips pressed roughly against mine. 

"Perrie, are you ou- oh sorry" Jade interrupted. I instantly pulled away from Zayn's lips, as much as I didn't want too. But that shouldn't have happened. I looked at Zayn and shook my head, wiping his saliva from my lips, before rushing up the stairs to where Jade was. 

"Perrie wait" Zayn called, as Jade and I both entered back into the building. 

"Mr Lewis wants you to type up the staff agendas for next week" Jade said. "I wanted to ask you if you want me to do it for you, if you've got something to be getting on with?"