Slowly Falling

Chapter 13

{Perrie}

After finding out the test was negative, I admit, disappointment ran through my body like I'd been shot. It fired through me, quickly, and unexpectedly. I always believed I was too young to start a family yet. I mean, I'm only twenty years old, and Zayn and I haven't even been dating that long. Although I loved him more than I could ever love anyone else, it was still only four months. Four months into a relationship is way too early to plan to start a family. I guess I just didn't know how much I wanted it, until the test showed up with the negative sign. It was now around 8pm, and Zayn and I were cuddling in bed. 

"I should get going" Zayn said, removing his arm from around me. 

"Stay here tonight, please" I said, looking up at his creamy brown eyes. 

"You know I can't do that. If either of us are late for work tomorrow, we'll get fired. And you know were both late whenever we stay over" Zayn said, getting up from the bed. 

"Well can you at least stay until I fall asleep?" I said, reaching out for his hand. "You can let yourself out"

"Sure" he said, sitting back on the bed. I snuggled up close to him, and closed my eyes. I put my hand slowly inside his shirt and walked my fingers up his chest. 

"Zayn?" I mumbled, keeping my eyes shut. 

"Hm?" he said, in the middle of a yawn.

"If the test showed up positive. What would you have wanted to do?" I asked. I opened my eyes, but didn't look up. 

"I wouldn't been fine with whatever you wanted to do baby. You know that" Zayn said, his hand reached up and stroked my blonde curls. 

"Yeah I know. But ignoring what I wanted to do. Would you want a child?" I questioned. Zayn kissed the top of my head. 

"Well yeah. I've always wanted children. I never planned to have them this young, but if it happened then I'd be happy. Especially having a child with you" Zayn answered. I smiled and looked up. Zayn looked down at me and smiled back. 

"You really don't understand how much I love you" I said, before kissing his lips softly. 

"I love you more" he said, separating our lips slightly but joining them again once he'd finished speaking. I shook my head and giggled mid-kiss. My lips left Zayn's, and I sucked on his neck roughly, leaving the faint tint of purple that was still left from my lipstick I'd applied in the morning. 

"Fuck me" I whispered in his ear, before gently biting his ear lobe. 

"You're supposed to be going to sleep" Zayn smirked and I bit my lip. 

"I'm not tired" I mumbled, before slowly pulling off Zayn's shirt that I had on, revealing my entire body, except from the small underwear piece I was wearing. I straddled Zayn as we kissed, and I felt his length get harder as I rubbed my crotch against his. I slowly unzipped his jeans, and pulled them off, before returning my lips to his. Zayn's fingertips fiddled with the elastic of my underwear and I giggled. 

"Take them off" I whispered and he did as I intructed. His caramel eyes stared and my naked body, biting his lip as he admired me. I pulled off his shirt, and softly kissed his chest, travelling down to his v-lines. Once I reached them, I kissed them a few times, before biting onto the top of his boxers. I rubbed his length over the material, and Zayn let out a few moans. I pulled down his boxers with my teeth, and threw them on my floor, before going bac up and putting my mouth around Zayn's boner and sucking on it. Zayn's hands grabbed onto my hair as he moved it out of the way, as I continued to suck. 

"Holy shit babe" he moaned as I got faster. I deep throated a few times, before taking it out of my mouth and going back up to kiss Zayn. His hands gripped onto my waist, before flipping me over so that now he was on top. I giggled as Zayn reached down to his jeans and grabbed a condom out of his pocket. I watched as he began to open it, but I took it in my hand and threw it across the room, before pulling Zayn's lips against mine again.