Too Good... |Keith Powers & Ryan Destiny|

29. Secrets.

Ryan,

"Ryan.. Ryan?" Izzy called out.

I opened my eyes, "hm?"

"You went to sleep ...Im back with your food."

"Mm." I sat up and rubbed my eyes.

"You have dry tears on your face." Izzy made a face at me.

I got up and went to wash my face. Once I came out the bathroom Izzy was eating on my bed. I grabbed my platter and opened it and saw chinese food.

"Thank you."

"Mhm... so why were you crying?"

"What? I wasnt crying." I ate some of my food.

"Liar."

"I probably had a bad dream & cried in my sleep I dont know." I shrugged.

Izzy didnt respond & I looked up at her she was staring at me with her eyes squinted.

"What Izabelle?" I laughed a bit.

She shrugged, "whatever...we should go to the premiere party too."

"What?" I looked up from my food and Izzy pointed to the tv. The commercial for the New Edition movie was showing for like the 100th time. "Oh mm I haven't been feeling good."

"Oh come on Ryan you been working your ass off since LA and came home and still had photoshoots .. you got a break from work for a week and havent moved out this bed. Lets go have fun."

"Don't you like...have work too?"

"Nope. I quit since Im about to start making money like you." She smirked and continued to eat. "Besides I have enough in my savings account."

"Right."

A little update, Izzy lives with me in my apartment, Im so happy and she respects my feelings enough to not bring Justin to the apartment. Izzy and I have been getting even closer like on a sister level even tho we are already best friends, maybe this is what it feels life is like to have a roommate in college.

Oh & Yes I did get an abortion. The morning Keith left I kept crying and throwing up so I got a pregnancy test. It came back positive and I got another and took the other two and the same results. The reason I got the abortion is because Keith and I weren't talking at all, and he was focused on Kacey .. I didn't wanna put another baby on his back. Me? Im definitely not ready for a baby but I'm already regretting having the abortion. The doctor told me my body still may think that Im pregnant and my boobs definitely still have been growing. I was almost two months pregnant when I got the abortion. Who did I tell? Nobody .

I mean ofcourse I'll tell Keith, just not.. right now. I don't know when I'll tell Izabelle but I know this whole thing is weighing me down. I have to tell someone eventually.

Gaby and Woody are still friends with benefits, Ronne still doesnt have a girlfriend, Luke found him a girl but I got them lasting for only 2 months tops. I havent been keeping intouch with Regina and my mom and I barely say two words to eachother, Before I leave to film STAR I plan on getting on good terms with both of my mothers.

"That was good..maybe I should start getting a large hm." Izzy looked at her empty platter. I raised my brow at her. "What??"

"Nothing."

"Im gonna nap before I go to my nail appointment. I'll see ya." Izzy got up with her trash and exited my room closing the door behind her.

I layed back on my pillows and got on my phone. Once I unlocked it I saw Kacey's fat cheeks which made me smile. I wonder if I wouldve had a boy..