Why do you do that?
You make me feel bad about myself, you make me feel like I'm less than you when I'm the one making conversation
Why do you do that?
It's always about you. Somehow you manage to steer the conversation so it's pointed at you instead of the other people trying to talk about their experiences. You cut people off mid- sentence, talk over them, seek attention whenever you feel like it and put others down to feel good about yourself.
Why do you do that?
You make me feel like I'm only your friend so you'll have someone to walk next to. But when you find someone you think is better, I'm suddenly the one walking behind you.
Why do you do that?
You make others feel like they're not worth your time. You make mean comments and most of the time, I don't even know if you're joking or not.
Why do you do that?
You can't handle the fact that some people are better than you. You're angry that you don't understand everything. And you don't have the patience or interest for people to explain it to you.
Why do you do that?
Do you know that you're doing it? Or is it just a subconscious thing you've been accustomed to doing to others so often you don't realise it?
Most days I think about how I became friends with you in the first place. I think I was blinded by the fact that before everything started happening for me, you were the only one I could go to. And for what? I think back and I can't think of a time where we ever talked about something that wasn't somehow related to you.
But now, now I see everything so clearly. How did I ever see it differently?
Why do you do that?
I called you my best friend once. Why did I do that?
(written at the start of 2018)
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