Mute's Life (Mute X Twitch -First Portion-)(Mute X Sledge -Second Portion)

The Call

You look around after your night terror to see that James is still asleep and doesnt seem changed after what happened in your head which is good. You lay back down wanting to go to bed but cant you look at the time to see that it is 6:00 so you decide to wake up. You walk into the bathroom look in the mirror and notice how sleep deprived you look. You lock the door and get into the shower you shave your face as you have not in awhile. You walk out grab your phone and sit on the couch waiting for James to wake up. You get a text from Sledge.

Seldge: Can you pick me up I need help.

Cant I have to look after James

Sledge: Please I need help. Bad

Should have thought of that before leaving.

Sledge: Look I will explain when I get there please help

No, Im sorry im putting my foot down I cant.

You turn off your phone and just start to cry in time of his need you cant help him, but he is just using you. You cant let him control your feelings he says you need to stop than asks for help. Than the voices creep back louder and angrier than before. I TOLD YOU ONCE JUST KILL YOURSELF YOUR NOT USEFUL MIGHT ASWELL. I THOUGHT THAT YOU WANTED TO BE HAPPY. WHY DIDNT YOU HELP HIM. You text Doc.

I cant really help this kid im not emotionally stable right now.

Doc: ARE YOU OK?!?

Yeah just im hearing these voices and I feel they will take me over I dont want James to see if I take my own life.

Doc: Im coming over

You dont have to really.

Too late before you know it Doc is at the door you open the door. He walks in and gives you hug than kisses you on your forehead this cause you to feel hot. You feel your body feel warm like you did with Sledge. "I'm sorry if I worried you, just please take James. Also, Im not looking for a realationship I still love Sledge, but I just cant hurt myself again." You say just thinking about him causes you to cry. Doc lift your head up and just holds in there. You look into his eyes but feel nothing all you see are blue eyes no emotions. Your to sad to see any beauty. Doc lets your head fall he picks up James and carries him to his room along with his bags. After Doc leaves the voices come back even louder than before. I TOLD YOU JUST END IT. YOU HAVE A KNIF CUT YOUR ARM FEEL THE BLOOD DRAIN. You look down and pick up the knife and head into the bathroom. You cut yourself just enough to bleed you sit there and cry as you feel the blood drain. You feel warm as the blood drips but cold on the inside as your blood is leaving your body. You cant take the pain of your life. You look down to see that you have no battle scars only scars of self hate and regret from the wounds of the people that have hurt you and the people that you have hurt. Theses thoughts cause you to crawl into a ball. You lie there for hours just crying.

3 Hours Later

You hear the door open and you turn away from the door you look down to see the bleeding has stopped but there is a puddle of blood surrounding where you are sitting. You hear someone open the Bathroom door and you dont even look to see who. You just continue to lie there and cry with not stopping at this point your mouth is dry as crying has taken all the water from you body. When they speak you know who it is. Your not glad but not sad to see them.

Sledge: "I-I-I" He sighs not able to complete his sentence or form a though. All he does is knee down next to you and hug you he than plants a kiss on your head. "I never knew I wish I never left. The man I was with only wanted us to seperate so he could try to seduce me I noticed how we both give and receive and if only one does one and the other does the other the realtionship whill crumble." He says this rubbing your arm. "To be honest I couldnt stop think about you I just could get you out of my head. You thoughts and feelings just always made my day. Now lets get you out of here lets go get some food." You look down at your wrist showing him the scars. He counts 17 in total you slide your arm away and than slide away from him and just stay there. He stands up and leaves you to be alone not what you wanted but what you gave off to him. After he leaves you satnd up and look in the mirror to see a broken man. Red puffy eyes and blood around them from curling in a ball. You see your arm and see that your arm is drenched blood red. You stumble your way over feeling light headed after cutting. You strip down to nothing and than enter the shower letting the watter brush away your past and you get out looking to see that you no longer look as depressed definitely still are but less. You finish shaving seeing as people like a clean shaven mute than a bearded mute. You go out and crawl into bed and just lie there starring into the ceiling just wanting to melt into the covers like carmel, you melt down at room tempature. The voices now quiet come back why are you still alive finish the job. You zone back in when the door opens to be greated by Bandit.

Bandit: "You doing ok? Iwanted to make sure your all good." He walks into the bathroom noticing the blood stain on the floor. He looks at you pissed "Let me see your arm." He also sounds pissed. You dont try to stop him. When you show him he just stares into youe eyes. "Im not sure whats going on. I saw Sledge he look depreseed. You are effecting people around you. If your looking for attention you go it." He storms off. He turns off the lights and closes the door no more like slams the door. You start to think. Was all of this just for attention. Am I really depressed or am I just needing attention. You turn over leaving about a foot or 2 of bed open behind you. You hear the door open and feel someone slide under the covers and spoon you. You dont fight it as you really needed human contact. You slowly doze off even though you had a day ahead of your night terrors have been keeping you up and causing emotional and mental pain.