Tequilawine | ✓

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I wanna waste your time
like your wasted mine
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I woke up. My head hurts more than normal. I took a pill for making it go away. I'm still on the floor. Nothing has changed there. My head probably hurts because I laid on the floor and fall asleep because of alcohol, but what can I do with that now?

I should maybe worry a little more about getting my life put together again, instead of trying to get revenge for all what he did to me.

I stood up and took the glass there was laying on the floor from yesterdays night. My apartment looks like a mess and I can't get my self put together to clean it up. 

I walked out to the bathroom and look in the mirror.
My messy hair, the dark circles under my eyes, and my red eyes.
What a combination.

I look like a mess. I feel like a mess. My life is a mess.

I starting the water and take my hands under it. The soft cold water just ran over my hands, like there is nothing there is stopping the water. It just runs like my hand isn't there. 

I can't be the only one who drinks their sorrows and problems away, can I? 

"I never let you down", you said last summer. Last summer was the best summer of my life.
I was so happy back then - Kinda miss that happiness I felt and how my life was back then. 

I had great grades, the best friends of my life and you. I had you.

Back then I didn't know how false you are. I thought the best about you and everyone else.

I shouldn't have trusted you.

If I knew back then how you would be or how you really are, I would never have been with you.

It's funny how you aren't 'Him' or 'He' anymore, but 'you'