Unstable [Harry Styles AU]

Chapter 2

As I venture down the chilly streets of England, there's only one thing I can think about: Emily and Kaylin.

Emily warned me they were party animals, so naturally I was a little concerned they would stay out all night. Especially since I just found out there was a dangerous gang there, or not ( I haven't made up my mind if I believe it yet or not), I wish they had come with me.

It probably wasn't the most responsible thing on my part to let them stay there alone- or maybe it wasn't smart for me to leave alone.

I barely knew where I was, let's just hope I can find my way back to the apartment with out getting lost.

I'm pretty sure there were a few right turns- or maybe they were lefts.

I groan and look around, hoping to find something I recognize and maybe I could find my way back.

Im not going to lie to myself- I wanted to stay with them a little longer- but I was feeling extremely uncomfortable given the circumstances of the situation.

I've always been a pretty shy person, never really tried to stand out in life. I've never done anything super exciting or ever been that girl that has a million boyfriends and friends.

I had a few extremely close friends in high school, and we just kind of kept to ourselves. I liked it that way, I'd rather have a few trust worthy friends than a hundred fake friends that don't actually care about me.

I also had a boyfriend for about three years in high school. He was the perfect boyfriend for me, especially from my parents point of view, but it didn't end perfectly that's for sure.

His name was Mason, and he broke my heart.

It's a story I don't like to talk about much, since it still sometimes stings even though it's been about a year.

We had grown up together, our families always were very close, but we had never thought of each other like that until high school.

He was smart, athletic, funny, handsome- so you could imagine that my parents had no problems with me dating him, and neither did I obviously.

He asked me on a date our sophomore year, and we got along so well. We had been friends before this, but never to the point of where we were heading. I felt like I could tell him anything, and he was my best friend.

We dated until senior year, when I went over to his house one day to find him in bed with a girl from our school, and apparently it had been going on for just under a year.

It took me so long to get over him, and it made it even harder when he would try to win me back, but I just couldn't go back to him. I knew I had to move on to bigger and better things.

That was the only serious relationship I've had, so I'm pretty inexperienced. It doesn't help that I'm shy sometimes, too.

I should try to learn and get used to the fact that I don't have to be shy all the time- I need to break out of my shell a little bit and I'm sure Emily and Kaylin are going to help me with that. They're pretty outgoing themselves.

Every once in a while it can be good to rebel or to do something unexpected, and I just wish I had done that sooner so I wouldn't be regretting it now.

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"Come on Jules! Do something exciting for once in your life!" My friend Kacey called me to try and convince me to go to a college party for the tenth time tonight. "Your parents will never find out, I promise! Just sneak out through your balcony, I'll pick you up, we'll go to the party, and you'll be home before you know it."