Penelope Park you can not do this to me

My heart wont stop breaking

Josie's POV
As I waited for my luggage, i was siting on one of the benches just waiting with my head in between my knees playing with my fingers trying to calm my breathing, I've seen my bag go around a couple of times but I couldn't bring myself to grab it, cause I knew that when I did everything was real and that my purpose for being here wasn't to visit my mum or the country it was to see my ex girlfriend that we are both still in love with each other, on her death bed, I close me eyes and just breath or at lest try too.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and saw my bag placed beside me

"Mum!"
I jumped up a gave her a hug I couldn't bare to let go

"Josie it okay"

"Mum, this can't be real"

"But Josie it is, and I know you, your a brave and strong women you can do this"

"Your right mum, Penelope needs me"

We brake from our hug and I pick my bag and we walked to the car, My mum had already spoke with Penelope's mum and go the hospital Penelope was in, the whole trip I could catch my breath, the constant fear of losing her or just seeing her in that state, my mum was to busy on the phone, I was lost in my own thoughts, I was trapped by my own fears and thoughts

The car come to a stop and I look out he window to see the hospital, mum mum locks eyes with me

"Jo you can do this"

"Can you come in"

"Jo, you need to do this one alone I'm afraid"

"Yeah your probably right"

I took a deep breath and opens the door

" I love you sweaty, text me if you need me"

I couldn't reply I nodded my head and shut the door, I was so nervous but mostly scared the fear of Penelope in general scared me knowing my feelings for her but now seeing her unconscious hardly breathing this scared me to death

I get to the reception and I still find myself no being able to talk, Penelope's mum recognises me as she walks in from getting lunch it's about 1:30pm

"Josie ?"

I look over to her, wow she looked so similar to Penelope, her lips her eyes and her hair, I felt myself tearing up

"Ahh yes, your Penelope's mum"

"Yes, please I'm Nat"

"That's a pretty name"

"Thank you Josie, come this way"

She motions me down the hall as she takes Adele breath, my heats was beating 8 times too fast it felt like it was was going to burst out of my chest, we got to the door it was shut

"Penelope Park"
I whispered slowly

"Now house I must warn you, she's pretty bad"

Nat reaches down to my hand and she gives it a squeeze, I take a deep breath and Nat pushes the door open

There she was, laying there unconscious, I rush of emotions flooded my body, I open my mouth but no words came out