TAEKOOK ¦ i'm not straight

i'm not: hungry

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JUNGKOOK

I awake from a deep slumber as a strong golden light shines through my now open blinds. I tiredly open my eyes and squint hardly when the sun gets into my line of vision. I'm not much of a morning person, as you may tell.

Once I realize I keep my blinds closed as I sleep, I jump up from my lying position, scared as to how they opened by themselves. That is when I see the figure standing by the window, eyes closed, enjoying the heat of the sunlight.

The ashy-blond tanned skin man looks nothing but ethereal as he stands there quietly without any form of movement. He looks at peace, with tranquility radiating off of his posture. Quite the sight.

Without a second thought, I immediately get up from my bed and head over to the calm Taehyung by my window. Nearing him, my arms automatically wrap themselves around his waist in one swift motion. To my surprise, the boy doesn't even flinch at the sudden contact, only leaning into the touch.

I then rest my head onto his shoulder, taking in his soft vanilla scent with all my will. I have no idea when this moment will end, how long it'll last, but I do know that it won't be forever.

I have to savour every moment of our time together, here. Just him and the sun.

I gently close my eyes, whilst he takes a deep breath and does the same as I. I soon feel his head turn to the side and something make contact with my right cheek. It's a soft and short touch, but it contains all meaning. It's sweet and powerful, just enough to show me how he feels but keeps so much hidden from my knowledge.

As his lips get off of my cheek, my eyes flutter open, but the sight in front of me causes me to jump a little.

Taken aback from the sudden change of position, I'm forced to sitting back up in my bed after a slight jump.

Nothing of the placement from the previous scene has changed, but I and the ashy-blond angel who showed up in my dream. The sunlight still peers through my blinds, letting off a golden glow into my calm and silent bedroom.

I suddenly remember the events of last night and look over my shoulder for Taehyung, who had been sleeping at my side when I went to bed. But to my surprise, nobody's there.

I then rub my eyes, remove the covers from my bottom half and lazily get out of bed with a yawn. This is when I get startled by someone loudly clearing the throats, the noise seemingly coming from nowhere until I look over at the staircase. As expected, it's no other than Kim Taehyung.

"Good morning sunshine, did ya sleep well?" He laughs a little, looking at my current in shock, and yet exhausted state.

"Since when have you been up?"

"'Bout half an hour. But don't worry, your family's pretty entertaining" He then turns around and hands me a sweatshirt from my desk chair for me to put on. "By the way, I never knew you were a drag queen when you were 5."

My eyes widen in shock, as well as I feel my face paling after hearing his last teasing comment.

"They didn't," I say in a slight pleading tone.

"Oh yes, they did"

"I can explain! I was just-" I try to save myself from this mess, but Tae has the audacity to interrupt me mid-sentence.

"Don't bother." He waves his hand, keeping a small smile on the corner of his lips. "It's cute"

He then proceeds to lean closer to me and quickly ruffles my hair with a wide boxy smile plastered onto his lips. I replicate the movement, minus the hair ruffling, due to my current sitting position. And of course, less of a boxy and more a bunny-like smile.

We go on, staring into the other's eyes as everything else disappears. Our smiles grow smaller, whilst becoming more caring. I feel a light pink tone creeping upon my cheeks as he goes back to place his hand into my hair, once again.

As reality hits me back in, I quickly slap his hand away and laugh it off, trying to seem the most casual as I can.

- What's happening? -

"We should go eat, right?"

"O-oh yeah..." He stutters. "Let's go..."

Tae straightens himself first, and I follow him, getting up from the bed and under the covers. From behind, I go upstairs looking at my friend's back as we go up each step. He seems a little hesitant as he keeps walking, but I choose to ignore it.

"Oh my god! You aren't dead!" My mom perks up, as she sees me emerge from the stairs standing close to Taehyung.

"What a surprise, I thought I'd die after finding out what you told Tae" I snap back while sending a joking glare to both my mother and Jimin sitting in the dining room.

"I thought it was funny" He laughs from his seat, mid-bite into his chocolate chip pancake, meaning crumbs went flying.

"Alright, let's not fight. How about we just eat some breakfast." My mother perks up. "Who wants pancakes?"

Without a single word, I drag Tae into the kitchen for him to grab a plate. I only respond as I take my own plate.

"Thank you, dear mother." I start "I would like for you to prepare extra fluffy ones for my wonderful friend over here." I end with a smile.

Obviously, she nods and accepts the request lovingly, but what surprises me is my 'wonderful friend's response to what I've asked.

"Oh you don't have to..."

"Hm, what do you mean sweetheart?" My mom is the type of person who baby's everyone, whether they're her children or not. Often not than her actual kids.

"I'm just not that hungry..." He trails off, looking nervously at the palms of his hands.

"Oh honey, you need to eat something though." My mom goes on. "You haven't eaten since last night..."

"I know... it's just" He takes a deep breath before continuing "I'll eat once I get home, promise."

"It better be a promise Tae, I'm worried about you"

"Don't worry about me, I'll be fine."

We then get quiet and head towards the table. The morning goes on with awkward glances to one another, trying to understand each other. No message getting across, no doubtedly.

We all have gloomy, worried expression, whilst Taehyung wears a bright oblivious, and yet somewhat fake, smile as time passes by.

Around noon-ish, right before getting ready to prepare our lunch, Tae states that he should be heading home and does so. I tried to convince him otherwise, but no success.

I guess I'll just have to wait for school to come by so I can have more information on our breakfast situation...

now pausing... truth, taemin

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A/N: 

And we're back!

Sorry that I've never really announced it through the book itself that I would be going on hiatus with it :((

But we're back (with shorter chapters but likeeee) So that's what matters 💛

And that's the tea,

- Tea