Every Little Thing

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

It's been a couple of months since I started my meds and things seem to be getting better. I talk to Janie about once a week about things going on in my head and Happy and I have been spending more time together since he's healed. I'm sitting at the house with Vin and Elena and Happy comes in from church. "Hey Hap." I say. "Hey babe." he says before walking back to the bedroom and straight into the shower. I don't think anything of it but it's been a month since we've been able to have sex and I know he has a high sex drive. I shake it off.

That night, we are laying in bed and I start kissing his chest and working my way down to his stomach and before I reach for his boxers, he stops me. "Come here." he says. I start to tug at his boxer and he stops me again. That's when it hit me. Fuck. I get up and grab my robe and head out of the bedroom and out to the back deck. Happy follows me. "Lace." he says. "Don't. Just go." I tell him. "I'm not going anywhere." he tells me. "Did you cheat on me?" I asked. He doesn't answer, just looks down at his feet. "You piece of shit. Get your shit and get out." I tell him. "I ain't going anywhere." he tells me. "Get your shit and get out or we will." I tell him. "Babe..." he starts. "Don't babe me. Get out. Please." I say. He heads to the bedroom and packs a bag. Walking back out to the deck he says "I'll go for tonight. I'll be back tomorrow for us to talk. I ain't leaving my wife and kids." he says before getting on his bike and leaving. I sit on the steps and sob.

Walking into the clubhouse, he heads to his dorm and slams the door. Juice picks up his phone "Janie, you need to head to Hap's. I think something happened." he says. Walking to Happy's dorm, Juice knocks on the door. Happy opens the door and snaps "What?" Juice looks at him and says "You okay brother?" Happy shakes his head no and says "I fucked up man." Juice sits on the bed next to him and he says "Talk to me man." Happy sits back up and says "We ain't been able to have sex since Elena was born and I got drunk and got head from a croweater. It was one time but we were in bed tonight and when she went to give me head, I stopped her. I couldn't let her do it. Not after I fucked up." he tells Juice. "Man you just gotta give her tonight. I sent Janie to talk to her and stay with her and the kids but tomorrow you need to go to her and kiss her ass. Do whatever you gotta do to make this right with her." Juice says. "Yeah. Thanks brother." Happy says.

I'm in the bedroom, packing up more of Happy's things, crying, when there's a knock on the door. Looking through the peephole, I see Janie standing there. Opening the door, she comes in and I fall into her arms sobbing. "It's okay sweetheart." she tells me. "No it's not." I say pulling away. I walk back to the bedroom and she follows me. "Packing his things?" she asked. "Yeah. He cheated on me." I say. "Shit. Look sweetheart. Men like these guys? They don't handle shit well. They have to have a release. I'm not saying it's right. All I'm saying is to hear him out and then make your decision." she tells me. "He couldn't wait two more weeks? You know how I found out?" I asked. She shakes her head no. "I was going to give him head and he stopped me, not once but twice and then wouldn't look me in the eye. He's never turned me down before. Maybe I'm not what he wants after all." I say, sitting on the bed defeated. "That's not true. Sweetheart, he loves you. He fucked up. Just hear him out." she says. I nod my head yes and she tells me "I'll sleep on the couch. Get some rest."

The next morning, Happy walks in the door and Janie sees herself out. Walking into the kitchen where I am he leans against the door frame. "Hey." he says. I don't answer. "Where are the kids?" he asked. "Venus has them. You can go by her house to see them once you get the rest of your things packed." I tell him before walking out to the deck. He follows me out. "I'm not leaving." he tells me as I sit on the steps. Sitting next to me he says "Just hear me out." I nod. "I fucked up. I got drunk and got head but nothing else. I know I fucked up but I don't want to lose you and the kids because I messed up. You are the only one I love Lacey. The only one I want." he tells me. I sit there quiet a few minutes. I don't want to lose him and neither do the kids. I stand up to head back inside. Before I get to the door, I turn and say "You sleep on the couch. From here out, I'm the only one you touch. I find out you even think about someone else, we're done." I say before walking inside and close the door. He walks in behind me and says "So you'll give me a chance to make this right?" he asked. "Don't make me regret it." I tell him. He says "Come here." I look at him for a minute before walking into his arms. "You're still on the couch." I say. "Yes momma."

An hour later, Venus walks in with the kids. I'm in the bedroom when Vin comes running in. "Momma." he says. He climbs up on the bed and snuggles into me. "Miss you momma." he says. "I missed you too baby boy." I say pulling him close. "Momma kay?" he asked. "Momma's okay but Daddy could use some love." I say. He jumps down and goes to Happy. I get up and head to the bathroom and fight off the tears. The only reason he cheated is because he doesn't want me anymore. I'm just gonna have to deal with him being with other women. I'll never be what he wants.

I walk back out to the living room and take Elena from him to feed her. After feeding her and burping her, I get her to sleep and put her in her crib. Walking out to the deck while Happy is inside with Vin. Drinking my coffee, I hear the door open. "Where's Vin?" I asked. "Watching tv." he says. "You okay?" he asked. "Yeah." I say and he tries to pull me to him and I pull away. "Don't." I say. "I'm sorry Lacey." he says. "It's fine. I get it." I tell him. "Get what?" he asked. "You know, when we got together, I knew I wouldn't be enough. I knew then that you would get tired of me. It's okay. You can stay here and be with the kids and still have your freedom. You don't have to pretend you're happy." I tell him, getting up. He grabs my wrist as he stands and says "I ain't pretending shit. You are enough for me. More than enough." he tells me. "That's why you couldn't wait to get your dick wet?" I asked in tears. Pulling me to him he says "I'll make this right. I promise." I pull away and say "Don't bother." before walking back into the house and into our bedroom and closing the door.