Every Little Thing

Chapter 17

Chapter 17

An hour later, the kids are walking out the door with Venus and Tig and it's just me and Happy. I walk out to the back deck and sit on the steps. He follows me out and sits next to me. Looking out at the yard, I start talking. "I don't know where I stand anymore, Happy." I say. "You're my wife. Mother of my kids." he says. "When we got together, you took me in after I was attacked. A part of me knew that I wouldn't be enough. Happy, why am I not enough?" I ask as the tears start to fall again. Rubbing my back he says "Baby this wasn't anything to do with you not being enough. I promise you are. You're more than enough. This was on me being drunk and stupid. This was totally on me." he says. "No it isn't. I couldn't give you what you needed. I tried. I honestly tried." I tell him, sobbing. "Baby please don't do that. This was on me. Not you." he says again. "Do you miss being single?" I asked. "Hell no." he says without even thinking about it. I still don't look at him but I'm not pulling away from his touch. "I don't want you to be with me. I want you to have your life back Happy." I tell him. "My life is with you and our kids." he tells me. "I heard Vin ask you if I was sad." I tell him. "Kid's smart as hell. Worried about his momma. We all are." he tells me. He puts his arm around me and pulls me to him and I let him. "Do you still want me?" I asked. "More than anything." He whispers into my ear. I look up at him and he leans down and places a soft kiss to my lips. I don't fight him. "I love you Lacey." he says. "I love you too." I tell him. "Where do we go from here?" I asked. "We take it at whatever pace you want." he tells me. I lean into him and we just sit.

The more I think about things, the more I miss him. I miss sleeping next to him. "You can move back into the bedroom but that's all I can do right now." I tell him. "Okay." he tells me. We walk back inside and I start dinner. Once it's done, we sit down to eat and I still don't say much. After dinner, the kids gone for the night, we sit on the couch and start a movie. Him on one end of the couch and me on the other. My feet are up on the couch and Happy grabs my feet and pulls them to his lap and starts rubbing them. I must have dozed off because I feel him pick me up and carry me to the bedroom. Laying me down, he strips and lays beside me. He doesn't touch me and I turn and lay with my back to him. Sometime during the night, I must have missed him because I woke up facing him and snuggled into his chest with his arms tightly around me. I start to pull out of his arms and he pulls me closer. "Go back to sleep little girl." he whispers knowing the kids aren't here. I try to pull away again and he pulls me closer again. "Hap." I say. He opens his eyes and looks at me. We just look at each other for a minute before I lean up and kiss his lips softly. He tries to deepen the kiss and I let him. I've missed him. More than I care to admit out loud. He hovers over me and kisses his way down my neck before we shed clothes and he enters me slowly. Thrusting in and out at a slow and steady pace, I feel myself coming undone underneath him and moan his name as I find my release. He finds his right behind me, growling my name into my neck. Looking at me, he kisses me softly again before pulling out of me and pulling me as close as he can get me. "This doesn't mean everything's okay." I tell him. "I know but it's a start." he tells me. I look up at him and say "Please don't make me regret this Happy." I say. "I won't baby. I promise." he says before I lay my head on his chest and we just lay there.

Later that day, Venus brings the kids home and Vin comes straight for me like always. "Momma better?" he asked. "Yeah baby. Momma's feeling better." I tell him and he snuggles into me. "Baby boy, why don't you help daddy with your sister and let me talk to Aunt Venus okay?" He nods and follows Happy to Elena's room.

Walking into the kitchen with Venus she asks "You guys talk?" I nod and say "We still aren't where we need to be but we're working on it. I finally let him back into the bedroom." I tell her. "Missed him didn't you?" she asked. "I did. I still do." I tell her, looking down at my hands. "Stay out of your own head sweetheart." she tells me. "I'm trying." I tell her. Happy walks in and hands me Elena and picks Vin up. "I just talked to Jax. We're taking a couple of days and going to the beach. Just the four of us." he says. "Happy. You need to be here." I say. "I need to be with you more." he says before kissing me softly and walking outside with Vin. Venus looks at me with a knowing grin. "Told you the loves you." I just smile a little and say "Maybe things will be okay." Venus leaves. I feed Elena and carry her out back too. Sitting on the steps while Vin plays in the yard, Happy sits next to me and pulls me to him. I lay my head against him and say "We'll be okay." He kisses the top of my head and says "Yeah we will."