Every Little Thing

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

The next couple of weeks I just go through the motions. Sitting at my doctor's appointment, the doctor asks how I've been. "I'm okay. Just tired." I tell her. She looks at me concerned. "I'm okay." I tell her. She checks my weight and vitals. "Your weights a little lower than I'd like but not enough to stress about. Just try to get it back up a little." she tells me and I just nod. After examining me she tells me. "You can go back to your normal activities." I nod and ask "What about birth control?" She looks at me and says "I can give you the IUD and that will be good for five years and I can do it now if you like." I nod and thirty minutes later, I'm walking out of the doctor's office and heading home.

Walking in, Happy is sitting there with the kids. "I thought you were at work?" I asked as I walk to the kitchen for a water. He follows me. "Wanted to be here when you got home. How'd the doctor go?" he asked. "Fully released. Put myself on birth control." I say, walking out to the deck. "Why?" he asked. "Happy, I just had a baby. I don't want another one for a while." I tell him and he nods. "You should spend time with the kids." I tell him before sitting on the steps and looking out at the yard.

Happy sits next to me. "Are you okay?" he asked. "Yep." I say simply. "I told you I wanted to make this right." he told me softly. "And I said not to bother." I tell him without looking at him. "You're barely eating. I know you've lost weight. You're not sleeping and I know this because I hear you crying every night. Do you know how bad I want to come in there and hold you but I know you won't let me." he says. "You have your freedom back. You don't have to be here. You can go back to your croweaters and have your life. Only reason you're here is for the kids." I tell him before getting up and walking out to the swing set. He walks back inside and closes the door.

I sit out there for a little while and Venus walks out there. "Hey sweetheart. You okay?" she asked. "Yeah. I'm good. What are you doing here?" I asked. "Happy called. He's worried about you." she tells me. "Yeah well I'm not his problem anymore." I tell her. "Baby girl you aren't anyone's problem. We love you and we're worried about you." she tells me. "I'm fine Venus. I'm just trying to figure out where I go from here. We aren't together anymore. I told him he has his freedom back and he's only here for the kids." I tell her. "That man is with you sweetheart. You're married." she tells me. "Only on paper." I say. "Do you still love him?" she asked. "Of course." I say. "He loves you." she says. "Just because he loves me doesn't mean he wants me." I tell her. "Lacey. What on earth makes you think he doesn't want you?" she asked. "The fact he cheated on me. If he really wanted me, he wouldn't have. I knew going into this that he would change his mind. I was never delusional enough to honestly think that he would stay with me." I tell her before getting up and walking inside.

I walk back inside and to my bedroom. I pretty much stay in there while Happy is home unless I'm cooking meals. I hear Vin talking to Happy in the living room. "Momma sad Daddy." Vin says. "Yeah buddy. Momma's sad. That's Daddy's fault." Happy says. "Make Momma happy." Vin says. "I want to buddy." Happy says and I start crying. I lay down on my side and face away from the bedroom door when I hear Elena crying. I wipe my face and go to the living room and pick her up and take her to the nursery to change her. Happy walks in with a bottle. "Thanks." I say simply, taking it from him and sitting in the rocker.

Kneeling in front of me he says "Please tell me what to do to make this right." he pleads. "Just be there for your kids. That's your concern Happy." I tell him. "You are too. You're my wife." he says. "Only on paper." I tell him. "Not just on paper." he says. He is on his knees and lays his head in my lap and I can't help but rub his head. It's as comforting for me as it is for him. "I love you Lacey." he says and I feel the tears. "Call Venus and see if she can keep the kids and we'll talk." I tell him. Standing up, he nods and kisses the top of my head and heads into the living room to get his phone.