Every Little Thing

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

The next couple of weeks and there's no change. I'm barely eating. I don't look Happy in the eye and still only contact is me giving him head. I wait until he goes to sleep before moving to the couch. I'm in the kitchen cooking with Vin sitting in the living room and Elena in her bouncer when Happy walks into the kitchen. I hand him his coffee and he says "Morning." I say "Morning." He sits at the table and asks "How long you been up?" I just shrug and say "A while." He drinks his coffee and watches me. I plate his food and get Vin set up in his high chair eating and I start cleaning the kitchen. "You need to eat." he tells me. "I'm fine Happy. I'll eat when I'm hungry." I tell him. He sighs and says "I'll call Chibs and tell him I'm staying home today. We need to talk." he tells me. "There's nothing to talk about. You need to work. We have bills." I tell him. "I can take a day." he tells me before walking into the living room on his phone.

I finished cleaning the kitchen and headed to the laundry room to take care of the laundry. Vin is in the living room with Elena and Happy. I'm putting a new load in the washer when Happy walks in. He picks me up and puts me on the top of the dryer and tries to kiss me. I turn my head and he puts his head on my shoulder. "Talk to me." he says. "I'm fine." I say. "No you ain't. You won't let me touch you. You won't let me kiss you. You think I haven't noticed you ain't eating? You ain't sleeping in the bed anymore. I know you been moving to the couch. Tell me what to do to fix this." he tells me. "You can't." I say, getting off the dryer. "Why not?" he asked, stepping back from me. "You and I can live together and raise our kids but we aren't together. I can't give you what you need anymore Happy. I've accepted that. Why can't you?" I asked, pushing past him and heading to Vin's room to clean. He follows me and says "I won't accept that, Lacey. You're my wife. You're the mother of my kids. You're the only one I want. I need you." he tells me and I stop what I'm doing and look at him. "Don't. I just want to coparent in peace." I tell him before going back to what I'm doing. He steps out of the room and I hear him on the phone. Thirty minutes later, Janie and Jarry walk in and get the kids. "What's going on?" I asked. "Kids are going out. They'll be back in the morning." he tells me. I kiss the kids before they leave and go back to cleaning.

I am in the laundry room again starting another load of clothes when Happy walks in. "What?" I asked. He doesn't say anything. He picks me up and puts me on the dryer like before and takes my face in his hands and forces me to look at him. "You're mine little girl and I'm yours. You are the only one that I want." he tells me before crashing his lips with mine. I try to pull away but he doesn't let me and I find myself melting into him. When we come up for air, he tells me "I'm taking my wife to bed and when I finally get you to realize I ain't going anywhere, I'm taking you to fucking eat. I'm not losing my wife." he tells me. Picking me up bridal style, he carries me to the bedroom and lays me down. He kisses me deeply and I start kissing my way down his body like I normally do. He stops me. "That ain't what I want from you." he tells me. I continue anyway. I pull his pants and boxers down and start to slide my mouth over his hard member. Sliding up and down, I feel him start to thrust a little and I start rolling his balls gently. He pulls me up off of him and lays me on my back. He starts trying to undress me and I whisper "Please don't." as the tears start to fall again. He kisses me softly and says "Baby, I want you. Only you. Please don't push me away." I look at him and see the tears in his eyes and I pull him to me. "I'm so sorry Happy." I start to sob and we just hold each other. It's the closest we have been in weeks.

He looks up at me and kisses me softly. "Let me love you. Please." he says and I nod. He kisses me deeply and hovers over me. He slides my shirt over my head and kisses his way down my body. Taking off my shorts and panties, he works his way to my core. Once he causes me to find my release, he hovers over me and enters me. Making love to me slow and gentle, whispering how much he loves me and needs me. Once we reach our release, together, he pulls me into his side and says "I love you so fucking much." I snuggle closer and say "I'm sorry I've been pushing you away. I just don't want you to regret being with me." I tell him. "I'll never regret it. You're my world." he tells me before kissing me softly.