Sometimes, I admit that I talk too much. I can really rant about anything. I'll always have an opinion, although sometimes I don't share it. Sometimes I don't think before I speak and blurt out things that could seriously hurt people. I know my mouth moves at 60,000 miles per hour.
I like that about me though, talking. I like the fact i can keep a conversation about clouds going. That I can make people laugh with just one small remark, towards a fellow classmate. I like how my communication is the thing that got me closer to the boy friends I have in school and out.
But, sometimes, honestly I just wanna rip my fucking voice box out. I would if i could. Because, despite making people happy, a lot of people tell me to shut my mouth when I share my opinion or try to make the other laugh. I really would love to just stop talking, which i have been trying to do for a while now. I could make it that the only time I speak is when spoken to. Or not speak at all.
If I didn't speak my friends would never get annoyed with me, or tell me to fuck off or respond with no one is listening. They would maybe accept me? Talk to me? Not block me out.
I think I would maybe miss making people happy, though. With my silly jokes and pick up lines.
