survival

losing it

It's been a whole week, since the Janette incident occurred. Things are back to normal now, I give a big shout out to all those who helped me through this especially A. A is Janette's older brother, his in college now, and every other person.my friends Richy, presh, buddy,elsa and so many other people.well if you ask me the latest I will tell you my final exam is kicking off faster than I could ever imagine. Things will be ending soon.new bonds will be created, new families, new life's to live but the old ones will never be forgotten.
Today I ended things with my boyfriend and I feel really bad about the fact I had to be the one to end things.its a life of a single all the way.i ain't caught out for relationship bullshit any more.my last relationship has taught me alot.and I dont think I will ever be able to love again.i'm so done.i wouldn't cry for a boy no more.
I have more f**king problems,than having to worry about high-school drama.
Right now my mom can't even afford to send me to Cali.
Few hours ago,she called me to say that at times things don't work out the way they are meant to,maybe am not meant to travel out right now, what the heck, I'm a lad filled with the most faith, I believe my faith can actually move mountains, some times when the world throws you palm nuts rather than walnuts, you make do of your palm nuts and bring out the best in it. No body knows how I feel over here.

Hey!!hey!!hey!!
(Tap on the shoulder)
Oh I've been so lost,
Hey rosy, I've been calling out to you, are you alright.

With a weak smile"hey Elsa.
Why are you here?

Uhmm for starters, you've been crying,and I know it's because of jane..

Don't be naive Elsa, must all my saddness be based on Janette , I've got other things to worry about. I reply with a smile.

I know your not happy rosy.but don't starve your self,she walks out
Now I hear Cassie voice all the way down.

Cassie is another friend of mine,i call her my sister, we were once best friends but things didn't just turnout as I excepted..now I'm done being sad.i've got to face my fear..
Cassie, I wouldn't let you see me this way, I say to my self.

Hey Cassie!! I shout out and give her a hug
What's poppin bae.she replys with a smile
I've watched you the whole time in the exam hall, you don't look good at all
Is everything alright? You know you can always talk to me.

I'm good cas,don't worry about me, it's just plain old rosy trynna get attention.

Who is trynna get attention, a familiar voice says..

Hey j!!, Casy runs up to her and hugs her..

Cassie you left me there,
like seriously!!, you ditched me for ken, Casy shouts out to her.

I stand there watching them have there moment, at times I think they are really meant to be best friends rather than me and Jane, they play the roll so well.

Hey bess, I snap out when someone hugs me,ya by someone I mean my best friend Janette..

Ouch!!your body is fucking hot rosy,
What's wrong.
I only smile at her and say later bae.
She understands
Alright Cassie see ya later.

"So,Jane it's after school section, I say with a smile on my face watching her wtf reaction, yea she always does that," What's going on?", I ask,

"Well chicken brain it's gonna be our final exams tomorrow and I know that after that I would be leaving for the states and all, but I think we should have some alone time"...a bestie time I add.

"Well that sounds like fun dude..
Ohhh and Jane!!, Your doing laundry today!!. I shout out grinning at her.

"Hell no, she shouts back, running after me, technically shouting I'm not doing laundry, please please please!!, don't let me please!!..
She's technically almost in tears.

As soon as I saw her face,I burst into fits of laughter. She looked so funny,
"Sorry.sorry".she says tring to catch her breath.

"What? I ask confused.
She shook her head. "Nothing"
I removed my sweater and laid comfy on my six springed bunk bed .smiling I say "ok jane you've won this time,but this is gonna be the last thing you do some shit like this to me" said those technically rolling my eye.

"Woops.in your face motherFucker, she said grinning at me.

"What the heck ? I screamed and charged towards her.
And thus began our pillow fight.
After what seemed like forever, both of us were sitting on the floor, covered with foam from head to toe, laughing our heads off.

Jane took a depth breath and let out a heavy sigh
"I will really miss and cherish this moments we've shared together.I don't remember the last time I had so much fun."
"Me neither I will really miss you j. "
I said remembering the last few months, my eye all teary.

"Hey .Hey. Don't space out again!"she said grinning at me.
"
Woops.sorry"i grinned back

"Now go do laundry chicken brain!

"Hah", cause my kind soul, I shout as I walk out to the laundry room.

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