nepenthe | yuwin

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more.
[môr]
determiner

a greater or additional amount or degree.

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a/n
drama ahead bcs y not and i miss yuwin so much hehet
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sicheng eyed yuta silently who was leaning on his desk.

it was lunch and they both didn't go out, well sicheng thought they were heading out but yuta just stayed put.

"why are you acting up?" sicheng mustered up the courage to talk out, even though stuttering.

yuta sat straight looking seriously at sicheng, "what?"

"why are you acting up." sicheng repeated saying everything clear and straightly.

"i'm literally just leaning over my desk what's wrong with that," yuta clicked his tongue, he didn't know why he was acting like that.

he felt the urge to let sicheng feel guilty. why? he also didn't know.

"fine, if this is how you want it to be then okay i won't bother you until you're normal to be with again" sicheng snapped, talking in his native language made him feel that he released the anger he needed to release.

though the chinese felt bad, he headed out.

yuta was left inside the classroom he wanted to chase him but he also felt guilty, shits backfired.

"wow, i messed up" he thought to himself
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the whole day was just sicheng and yuta avoiding each other.

it was basically awkward since they were used to being together for almost a month and that made them realize that they didn't create any more friendship rather than themselves.

yuta just casually texted taeyong while students oftentimes greet sicheng. they did the best they could to avoid talking.

classes started and they both still handled to suppress the things they wanted to talk about, yuta was about to tap sicheng's shoulders if the class president, doyoung didn't interrupt them.

"class 21, i would like to announce the dismissal of classes 3 hours earlier today since every teacher will gather up because of a meeting the principal urgently did. that's all thank you" he said and picked his books and walked out.

the class was filled with hoots and mini celebrations and they started to fill out the room.

sicheng followed the students going outside not looking back to yuta.

yuta saw how sicheng walked away but importantly he saw how sicheng glanced at his direction before moving out.

yuta smiled to himself, "i guess i should do it today, huh?"

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bus stop. sicheng looked around and played with rocks using his feet.

he was used to walking home but he thought that he'll probably meet yuta and suffer from long ignoring-contest again so he thought of an alternative.

sicheng didn't ride the first bus that offered a hop. why? oh, because it was crowded. or was it?

actually deep down he thought of being guilty and wanted to reconcile with yuta as soon as possible.

sicheng sighed and looked around and saw a familiar figure in his peripheral view.

"was it him?" he thought and reluctantly looked back.

and it was really yuta standing there with a smile as he waved at sicheng.

the chinese stood up and walked to yuta's direction.

"i hate you so much" sicheng said and bit his lip and hugged yuta.

the older just stood there, probably enjoying the warmth two of them shared.

"can i at least own this moment?" yuta scoffed.

sicheng pulled away, hitting yuta's chest as the older winced.

"i don't even know what happened" yuta chuckled earning a glare from sicheng.

"you were acting up that's what happened"

"and you snapped at me"

sicheng smiled, "touché"

with that yuta could also just smile.

"do you know why im actually here?" yuta said.

sicheng squinted his eyes, "to ride a bus too? because you think that i'll walk and you can't stand being ignored?" well that was what he thought.

"you think too much," yuta chuckled "i know you're here"

"so what's the relevance of me being here and the reason why you're here," sicheng said "oh, wait"

yuta gave him a bouquet of flowers with the chinese's shock because no one knew yuta was carrying flowers until now.

"you're being too cute, stop thinking now" yuta tousled the younger's hair.

whilst sicheng held the flower up high to cover his red face.

yuta chuckled, "can i ask?"

sicheng slowly looked at yuta, even though nervous he never really felt all pumped up.

sicheng always felt safe if it's yuta.

sicheng quietly nodded

"didn't i say we're nothing because its the only thing that lasts forever?" yuta said earning a nod from the younger.

"what if we step out of our comfort zone and risk it all?" yuta smiled softly

sicheng looked at him with hope and confusion written in his face.

"can we be more?"

silence, they were enveloped by silence.

"this is purely a surprise-" sicheng was cut off.

"i'll love all of you. not just the side of you that's sweet, the side of you that's caring and gentle. i'll also fall with your hard edges, fall in love with your grumpy moods and sad nights. fall in love with your deepest insecurities, not just deepest desires. I'll be someone who's going to love you even when your breaking down on some nights, someone who's going to hold you through it. and i promise that i didn't love you just because you make me feel special, i love you for you. because i simply just do. i love you, dong sicheng" yuta said breathless.

sicheng was in an ineffable state, he cannot condane the words that came out of yuta.

he was rendered speechless.

everything yuta said, he did prove it.

and he knew everything was real.

he just can't come up with words because of the feeling of tearing up. instead of coming up of words he hugged yuta, who was waiting for an answer.

they hugged thinking it was enough for now.

a/n
woop woop im busy fr and i think im failing a subject fml ahbhahdbsdhww a happy update bcs my birthday is on october 14 (yay for me) bUT WOOPS WHAT WAS SICHENG'S ANSWER???

to be continued...