flowers [kim doyoung]

twenty-six

"i'm sorry—"

"doyou—"

both of them wanted to say something to each other at the same time. keiko looked at doyoung.

"alright, you first"

"no..no, you first. i—"

"alright me first. doyoung. why the fuck i love you so much until i felt like really mad because you left me three, okay three or five years ago? i can't remember but you did left me without any explanation!" keiko hissed and decided to push doyoung on to the bed, making him stumble.

keiko sat on his lap, strangling him because she doesn't want doyoung to escape her question. this bastard would try to change the topic and answer the question later.

he would just make a round loop and tell the answers, at the end of it. he doesn't seem like the doctor's who are more straightforward.

"i thought i hav—have answered that just now. why are you strangling me? i'm not running from you" doyoung stuttered, as he looked at keiko in the eyes. he tried to be confident even though he's not.

"no, i don't want your explanation like that. you said you love me but why did you left me without any explanation. yeah i did know that you left because of your dreams but that doesn't makes sense. doyou—"

without waiting for her to finish her rambling, doyoung decided to shut her up with a kiss.

he smashed his lips onto keiko's, pouring out all of his feelings onto the kiss, because he doesn't even know how to answer her question. his hands rested on her hips as she puts her hands around his neck.

keiko, she is someone.. bold and charming . he knew that she wouldn't take simple answers as answers that would satisfy her.

now, he's kissing her for the first time, letting all of his feelings lead it on. their lips moved in perfection, making them lose air as every second ticks.

doyoung couldn't stop his anxiety from rising up anyway but he vowed to himself, he needs to fight the feeling. floods of negativity began to surround him.

what if keiko didn't enjoy the kiss? what if he's forcing it on her?

too disturbed with the thoughts, keiko on the other hand, was on cloud nine. her awkward, complicated and savage best friend just kissed her. this was a strong move of him. that was until she accidentally bit doyoung's bottom lips and earned a grunt from him.

at last, both of them break the kiss, feeling breathless. it was like a dream. he couldn't ask anything more than that.

despite having a hot face, he decided to tell her. "i'm so—sorry for that. you're just too, i can't put it into words. too beautiful"

keiko was burning too, her face is decorated with the pink hues and cold sweat was clinging on her skin.

she couldn't say anything because she loves it so much. she loves doyoung. she snuggles her face into doyoung's neck, trying to hide her blushed face.

"don't worry, i love it" she mumbled against his skin.

she is daring, straightforward but when it comes to crying and skinship with doyoung , she never handled it well.

doyoung kissed her forehead before snuggling into her hair. oh god, this moment seems impossible for him.

keiko looked up and see his heart. the blushing pink colour radiate all of his heart. even though it's pink, like it's in ease but she saw the three roses that was punctured in his heart. she saw the blood from the roses, staining his chest.

she couldn't help but to touch his chest. doyoung had his shirt ripped by her anyway, so he had an exposed chest.

intrigued by the look of his heart, her fingertips touch his chest where his heart is located. like she was sedated by it, she traces his chest.

doyoung was breathing peacefully, letting keiko trace his chest. after being in pure bliss, he heard keiko gasped.

"d—doyoung look at this" she stuttered. keiko? stuttering?

doyoung looked towards her, to see her hands bloody. blood was dripping down her fingertips and she was holding a petal. a flower petal.

he furrowed his eyebrows, where did she find blood?
before he could say anything, keiko had panicked.

"doyoung i swear i didn't do anything to you. please believe me. i was intoxicated with your ch-chest cause it looked pretty but i didn't know it had resulted like this, please don't kill me"

"i won't? keiko relax, i'm not gonna be mad at you either. it's just weird. wait— did you touch my chest where my heart is?"

"yea—yeah, cause your heart looked pretty when you're shy, even though you still had three black roses left, and—and your black veins."

"shoot" he palmed his faced. he realized something.

having her eyes big, she wasn't handling this well. "what?! what happened doyoung?" she shake his body.

doyoung stayed silent for a minute, leaving keiko's question unattempted.

"no, it's just, i feel like you have succeed in holding my heart. my blood's smeared across the heart. and now, you could touch it, my blood"

keiko stayed silent. she don't know what to do with that information. it just sounds so.. weird. she could touch his heart? but his heart is inside of his body ? whAt?

"i know it's weird babe but i guess it happens" doyoung whispered, looking at his own heart. keiko was stunned, doyoung called her 'babe'.

gosh it was too stunning for her. she felt that she could stay in that moment forever.

to break keiko's thoughts, doyoung said something that catches her attention. "um.. you said that we're here to talk about zaya right? i.. i think i have a plan to stop her"

"you.. have a way?"

suddenly doyoung flipped keiko over and hovered her. why would he do that? his sudden change of demeanor was too peculiar.

he came closer and his lips are basically an inch away from keiko's ears. "forgive me for doing this but i saw zaya. she's in here" his hot breath tickles her tan skin. she wasn't ready for his bipolar self to take over sometimes.

she tilted her head until she was merely inches away from doyoung's lips. "and why do we need to do this act? this position isn't very compromising to me since i just confessed to you minutes ago"

"zaya starves affection for herself. seeing other people happy makes her jealous. i actually wanted to tell you about how to stop her, without me involved with it" doyoung leaned in more to her neck, brushing his lips a bit onto keiko's lips, making her sighed.

"i know you're uncomfortable but keiko, please touch me as i talk to you"

"but doyoung, i don't think i can focus"