In the End

Chapter 9

Maybe kissing him a bit unexpectedly wasn't the best idea but then again it could've been worse. He situated himself again on the bed his breathing more rapid than before. His amazing eyes, perfect hair even when messy, the grin plastered on his face was the cutest thing ever. I couldn't help but smile back, it was contagious. His warm gentle fingers caressed my face pulling my chin up and bringing his soft lips close to mine hesitatingly he asked "may I do it again?" I giggled and nodded approvingly. Our kiss was so gentle, our lips moving together, all I could do was melt and fall into his kiss. My breathing was becoming irregular, he pulled away long enough to let me catch my breath then my hand wrapping around entangled in his hair slid down to his neck and made me kiss him more passionately. His fingers leaving my cheek and following my collar bone to my shirt tugging on it a little bit. "Could you maybe remove that? But only if you're comfortable." I liked how he didn't push me to do things I wasn't comfortable with. I slipped out of my tank top over my sports bra. His eyes widened and took in my appearance as if he were studying me. "You're beautiful and your body is amazing." My face was getting hotter, I was glad it was dark. "Your turn" I said playfully. He took off his white cotton T-shirt. His body was sculpted perfectly, he was toned, sorta skinny, but had some muscle on him. It was my turn to be flabbergasted. He was so amazingly sexy. I ran my fingers along the lines of his toned stomach and a groan skipped from his mouth. Unexpectedly I joined in by only because his moans make me weaker and his hand traveled higher up my thigh. I was weak. I moaned... Eben... His face went from pleasure to worried. "Is that to much?"

"No it's just enough" I told him. "great"he smiled and pecked me on the lips and even that pleasured me. As little as it was it felt amazing and I wanted more so again our lips were pressed together again. He smiled and told me this was great but a workout, I could tell he needed to rest so we fell asleep. Him spooning me and me holding on his arm like he was protecting me.

We woke up the next morning his hand tangled in my hair snuggled as close as could be. He woke up and gave me a half smile attempted from his morning state. I couldn't help but laugh he gave a laugh as good as his smile but just as cute. He was perfect even in the morning. I couldn't help but run through last night's events in my mind. I knew that Eben wasn't the one. I knew he was a sweet boy and smart and was caring and gentle. He was great but not for me and I didn't want to hurt him, I but I wasn't sure what was going on in my mind completely. I wanted him but I think it's because he makes me feel good like Emerson did. But I need to just break it off, I just can't do it. Hits parents went somewhere so he took me out to breakfast then dropped me of at my house. I thanked him greatly and told him listen carefully. I stated in his eyes resenting what I was about to do. "Eben thank you so much! I had the most fun in who knows how long and it was amazing. Your an amazing guy, perfect, sweet, compassionate, overall just a great guy... But I don't think that we can do this I looked what happened last night don't get me wrong but I feel like it was supposed to happen to someone else. There is someone better for you and I know it. I just want to thank you again and I'll text you later" I told him grabbing my bag and then heading in the door. I felt terrible he looked heartbroken which was all my fault. Well school's almost out so I can't wait for that. I went home and just laid in bed allday, mom came home around 7ish at night and I told her I was just tired. I went to bed and woke up the next morning surprisingly feeling refreshed and tranquil except for a message, missed call, and a voicemail from none other than Emerson. All I could tell myself was I am not ready to go to school or read his message or listen to the voicemail. I didn't bother listen to the voicemail. I figured it could wait.