Pain Or Redemption ( Complete)

Part-12(a)

Part-12(a)
Arnav relieases that khushi might get up so he picked up khushi and made her sleep on bed comfortably adjusted comforter and AC, Kissed her forehead and switched off her side of lamp.

Arnav pick  Khushi's diary and opened the page which he still not read.

Arnav open the diary

I always wanted simple life  never wished to become some high society daughter in law always wanted simple understanding loving caring husband and normal marriage life then why i did not got why DM why all this is happening with me only. What is my fault ?

In last 5months i never understood why Arnavji hates me where is my fault that he hates me so much and Yesterday i just asked him What has happened? i was worried for him but  he forced himself on me raped me arnavji for this i will never ever forgive you you broken my every dream i will never forgive you .

Next Page(After 2week)-

Where is my life going on. What i have become now even i forgot what i am for arnavji person whom i love person who is my husband but for him i just body which he use everytime either to let out his anger and frustration or to fulfill his Man Sexual NEEDS. For everyone i am arnavji wife Raizada one of the big high society family elder daughter-in law but in reality i am just a body who is used by Man but yeah for family still i am mannerable doting bahu and caring wife.

For my family my amma-babuji i am still their sweet Khushi but in all these both are no where at fault i never told them anything what is going on in RM and i dont want to tell them else they will feel guilty and blame themselves for my condition and force me to break this marriage without my wish but again they are not at fault.

What a fate once i liked writing diary  now i do not wish to write because it reminds me the pain which i get .

Before after writing  diary i always felt relaxed as if heavy burden has lessen from my body but now i feel i am suffocating now every time it give me pain.

Hai DM what my life has become wish i have never got agree for this marriage then i have never fall in love with a person who dont love me and  must have not been in the place where i am today.

Now i have decided i will not write diary because now in place of lessing my pain writing diary always increased my pain reminds me those moments which i wanted to forget reminds me my failed marriage reminds me that i am just a body for my husband whom he treats to fulfill his Sexual desires.Reminds me that person whom i love does mot loves me.

I think my condition is worst then Lavanya she was Arnavji mistress but he always gave her importance but me even being his wife he use me daily as a tissue paper and in the morning throw me after breaking into more pieces like tissue paper is torn after using it.

I dont know how long i will be able to take all this but that is for sure it will not be long.

Next Page(News of Pregnancy )

I am Pregnant i am Pregnant Hai DM i cannot believe it that i am Pregnant but...but do this baby will matters to arnavji.  Offcoursly khushi why not this baby will be mportant for him after all its his baby his half part and might be after listening baby's news arnav ji will change even i should also forgive him for our upcoming baby and start our life freshly. Yes now everything will be fine but i will tell this good news firstly to arnavji after that anyone else.

Next Page

Today i lost my baby my baby my last hope my everything why? why  all this is happening with me only? firstly my carrier then my husband now my baby . Dont i deserve little bit of happiness.