Connect-Shawn Mendes

annoying

Haley's POV

Me and Shawn were currently laying together in our hotel room bed watching breaking bad on the tv. We decided on getting one room instead of two because of how often we usually are at each other's room.

"Are you nervous?" I asked Shawn taking my eyes away from the tv and onto him.

"Why? What would I be nervous for" Shawn said turning down the tv and diverting his attention towards me.

"Well you have the Met Gala in two days" I said bringing up the event that's in two days.

"Not really, I mean I've been before and I'm going with one of my friends so I don't really have anything to worry about" Shawn said combing through my hair with his fingers.

"Who are you going with?" I ask remembering last year he went with Hailey Baldwin.

"I'm going with Camilla, we both are going to be modeling for Tommy Hilfiger." Shawn said taking his hand away from my hair.

"Oh" I said while jealousy rushed through me. I tried my best not to show it though. Camilla still hates my guts for being with Shawn but I try and keep calm about it.

"I wish you could come" he said rolling onto me.

"Why can't I" I said struggling to breath because over 100 pounds is on my chest.

"Well you don't have a designer"

"I can get a dress"

"You didn't get a invite also"

"Can't I just g-"

"God damn it haley! You can't go, just accept it. You're not famous, you don't have a designer, you aren't important or even important enough to be in this event. You can be so annoying and self centered sometime I hate it." Shawn said getting off of me and standing up besides the bed looking at me with a menacing stare.

"Sorry" I whispered. Not gonna lie, I was pretty hurt. I understand I was being super annoying but he didn't have to say I wasn't important enough. I thought maybe I was important enough to Shawn to where he would take me as maybe his plus one or as his girlfriend. Maybe I'm just not important to Shawn, I mean I'm only his girlfriend.

"Listen I didn't mea-" Shawn said rubbing his temples obviously frustrated with me.

"No it's fine I know I'm not that important enough." I said standing up out of bed and sliding my shoes on.

"Where are you going?" Shawn said looking at me sadly.

"I'm gonna get out of your space I know I'm being annoying I don't want to be the things to cause you to be stressed. Especially before a event where you need to be 'perfect'" I said putting air quotes around perfect and putting my backpack over my shoulder.

I walked out of our hotel room and went to the elevator and clicked the down arrow. Slowly the sound of the elevator being here starts.

I walked into the elevator and clicked the ground floor button. I hate being annoying, when I was a teen I was super annoying and people told me it frequently. I decided on just shutting up and not talking so I could prevent myself from being annoying to people, hearing someone now say how I just need to shut up and stop being annoying really hit my hard. Not to mention that fact that he also said I'm self centered and that he hates that about me.

The sound of the elevator stopping brought me out of me talking to myself.

I walked out of the elevator and walked out straight out of the hotel. I decided to explore the area of New York by myself.

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I was walking around the streets of New York when I started to get overwhelmed by all of the people surrounding me walking. I saw there was a shop that had no people into it and did a be line into the store.

I didn't even know what kind of store it was but when I walked in I soon realized it was a book store.

"Welcome" a girl in her late teens says to me.

"Hi" I said back trying to be polite.

I slowly walked around the book store until I saw the poetry section of the library.

I love reading poetry because they are like short paragraphs that hold a huge message that sometimes a 1,000 page book can't even explain.

I walked down the isle full of poetry and pulled out the first book that caught my eye. It was a pretty thick black book from the looks of it.

Pillow Thoughts

I admired the cute little jellyfish in white on the cover. I slowly opened it up and saw a table of content, I looked down the page and saw two sections that stuck out to me

If you are in love. page 23

If you are in need of encouragement. page 153

I slowly turned the pages until I found page 153, I turned over a couple pages until I found a quote that really made me feel something.

Maybe you're running scared because running is better than letting someone else in. But the truth is, you can't spend your whole life running. It's exhausting living in fear. Slow down. Chances and risks keep life interesting.

Now I feel the need to run back to Shawn.

I close the book and take it with me up to the cashier and pay for the book.

I walk out of the store and into the cold New York air and back to Shawn.