Ode to my Disorder

Mukbang Videos

Later I'm watching a mukbang video to curb my cravings 

Krispy Kreme and McDonald's and Little Caesar's and Ben & Jerry's and a million things that I haven't eaten in so, so long.

Thousands and thousands of calories while they laugh and smile and talk and EAT.

It doesn't make the hunger go away

But I can't stop watching.

How can anybody be so free around food? 

I bet they aren't. 

I bet they vomit up everything after they click off the camera 

Of course they do 

I do