Ode to my Disorder

Another One of the Memories

It's the middle of the night 

My body won't let me sleep because it's scared my heart will stop. 

My bladder is full

Probably from the thousand and one zero-calorie drinks I've had today. 

I stand up 

A wave of dizziness and nausea hits me and 

I Faint 

I'm lying in the hard ground, my bed pressed against my back. 

I tell myself that I don't want to get up because I don't think that I can.

I go back to sleep.