I feel like my life is falling apart.
I thought for a while that my life was finally getting better than it was before when I met my online friends but it's not. It's even worse than before now.
My anxiety is worse than it has been before and I feel like it's only going to get worse. I can't even talk to anyone about it because every time I do try to talk to anyone I break down and wuss out.
I feel like I'm nothing but an annoying burden that people feel like they're forced to deal with.
I have trust issues after all the times my irl friends have tried to ditch me but I can't just leave them because without them I'll be broken.
I thought my online friends were making me happy but it feels like now they're starting to care less about me as well.
Everyone keeps putting their problems on me and makes me try to solve their problems for them which makes me feel worse, knowing that they can talk to the people they trust but I can't, knowing not only do I have to deal with my own problems but theirs too.
I can't handle this and I want to get everything out to someone in person but I can't find the courage. It hurts. It hurts to keep what I'm feeling inside.
But I'll have to.
