Prospect & Princesa

Chapter 3

Chapter 3

Pulling up to the clubhouse, I get off the bike and walk inside with EZ right behind me. I walk up to the bar, not saying a word and take a full bottle of Jack and head to one of the couches and take a long pull from the bottle. EZ watches me from the bar and Chucky asks "Princessa okay?" EZ doesn't look away from me but says "No. She's not." He watches me as I take another pull from the bottle before moving over to sit next to me. I just sit there and continue to drink. When the guys come back into the clubhouse, my dad motions the Prospect over. "How's she doing?" my dad asks. "Not good. Came in and grabbed the bottle and hasn't moved from that spot. Hasn't said anything either." he tells my dad. The guys all look over at me worried. "That shit he was saying is in her head. That's what she's thinking about." EZ says. "Thought you said she didn't say anything." Coco says. "She didn't but when she walked outside after he said that shit, she kept saying that he was right. She actually believes what he said." EZ says. "Stay close to her. Don't let her have anything else after that bottle." Bishop says. "Got it." he says before walking back over to me. When he sits down, I lay my head on his shoulder and he kisses the top of my head. I take another pull from the bottle before the tears start to fall again.

EZ picks me up and carries me to my dorm and I let him. Putting me down on the bed, he takes my shoes off, then his and his kutte. I lay down on the bed and he pulls the covers over me and lays down next to me. Pulling me to him, I start to sob. "I don't want to be here anymore." I say as I sob. "Don't do that. We need you here. I need you here Belleza." he whispers. I move away from him and shake my head. "Just go. I want to be alone." I tell him, knowing there are sleeping pills in my bathroom cabinet. "I'm not leaving you alone." he says as he pulls me to him again. I try to pull away, looking towards the bathroom and he looks towards where I am looking. He gets up and walks to the door. He moves to the cabinet and opens it. Seeing my sleeping pills he looks at me and the grabs the bottle and flushes them before I can get to him. "Why did you do that? I need those." I say. "No you don't. You can't sleep? I'll stay with you. You don't need that shit. I know what you're thinking." he says. "You don't have a fucking clue what I'm thinking. You don't fucking know me." I say as the tears keep falling. "You're thinking that what he said is true. You're thinking you wanna fucking die. That everything would be better that way." he says and I look at him shocked. "I had those same thoughts when I was in prison. Shit won't be better if you die. We need you Manda. We all do. But as far as that shit he was saying? It's all bull shit." he says and I shake my head no. "Just leave me alone EZ. Please?" I beg. He walks over and says "No. I'm not leaving you alone. We need you here. You're fucking amazing. You're beautiful, compassionate, you take care of us. Mi Belleza, I need you here." he says cupping my face and making me look at him.

He leads me back to the bed and makes me lay down. Laying down beside me, he pulls me to lay my head on his chest and I cry while he rubs his hand up and down my back to soothe me. Eventually I fall asleep. Waking up the next morning, I wake up and I'm snuggled into his chest and his arms are tightly around me. I feel him stir and he kisses the top of my head. "Morning Mi Belleza." I go to move and he doesn't let me. "Morning." I whisper. I look up at him and he asks "How are you feeling?" I look away and I ask "Why did you stay with me?" He lets me sit up and sits up beside me. "Because you needed me." he says. "You didn't have to." I say. "I will always stay. Princessa, you need to see you're worth it." he says. Before I can say anything, he says "You're worth it to me." before placing a soft kiss to my lips. Pulling me closer again, he lays me back down and lays with me, his arms still around me. "What are we doing?" I ask. "You need to see how perfect you are." he tells me and before I can protest, he says "You're perfect. I'd be proud to have you by my side." I look at him and ask "Why would you want me?" He kisses me one more time and says "You're strong and you take care of us. You're there for us. But you're beautiful and exactly the kind of woman I need in my life." he says. "My head is so screwed up EZ." I say. "And I'll be here when you're ready, still by your side." he says. "Thank you Mi Dulce." I say before I lean up to kiss him softly before he deepens the kiss just a little.

A little later, we walk out to the main room and I walk right into my dad's arms. "How you doing Mija?" he asks. "I'll be okay." I tell him. "Prospect staying close?" he asks. "Yeah. Can I talk to you?" I ask and he nods. We walk into Templo and sit at the table. "What's on your mind Mija?" he asks. "Prospect. He stayed with me last night. Held me while I cried." I tell him. "Good. You didn't need to be alone." he says. "He told me he wants to be with me." I tell him. "You don't want that?" he asks. "It's not that. He's been nothing but good to me but, Papi, how do I get my head right? All I keep hearing is Lucas in my mind telling me that I'm worthless and no one wants me." I tell him. "Novio, Lucas didn't know what the fuck he was talking about. If you want to be with the boy scout, then be with him. I see how he is with you. He'll help you get your mind right." he tells me. "Are you okay with it?" I ask. "Better than being with Creeper. Prospect's smart. He's determined. He'll take care of you. He's devoted." he tells me and I nod. Hugging my dad, we walk out of Templo and I walk over to EZ and right into his arms. He puts his arms around me and kisses the top of my head as I snuggle into him and the rest of the guys just look at us smiling. My dad looks at EZ and says "Take care of our nina." EZ nods before tilting my face up to look at him and kisses me softly.