Lost and Returned (Ouran High School Host Club love story)

Chapter 15

Okay, so I expected one of two things when I asked my mother if I could go on the trip with Haruhi and the others. Haruhi technically invited me, so I wasn't imposing, but my mother seemed to love the idea as much as Tamaki did the other day. I had been expecting more of a no or a sure, but don't come home pregnant from her. Well I'll probably still get the second answer, but she had dragged me to the store to buy beach clothes, it had been years since I had gone to the beach, well she had taken me, but I never did anything more than stay in the room. She was so excited about buying all these things, but we weren't staying that long as far as I knew, it was going to be like one night there or something like that. I wasn't going away for a week, and we weren't going back any time soon more likely than not.

"I really don't need this much. We're only staying two days and I don't plan on doing much." Swimming and playing on the sand wasn't much of my thing, the beach was beautiful, and I liked going there, but I was more of the person that just sat, watched, and listened; I didn't do much of anything else. I might walk around a bit but that was probably the extent of what I would do. I may speak now, but my personality hadn't gone through any magical change. 

"You at least need a swimsuit, towel, and a beach dress. It's going to be so nice for you to go out with some friends and get a little sun. You've managed to fade even more with all that time you spend in the house, I'm worried you're going to be see through one of these days." She laughed as she spoke, she was having more fun with just the planning and idea of this beach trip than I probably would at the actual beach. I'm starting to think I should let her go, and I'll watch the house for two days while she has fun. It would be something she would enjoy more than I will. Though I doubt that would work, seeing as how she wants me to get out more and be friendlier. 

"Fine, but I don't want a bikini." I most likely wasn't going to swim, but she was insistent, this was the third time I had told her I don't need a swimsuit and she's pointed out I need one, but I wasn't going to wear a two piece, a one piece was fine with me. I wasn't going to show off, if anything I might wear it as some kind of shirt with something wrapped around my waist if I don't wear pants or shorts with it. It would probably never touch water. I could swim just fine, but it was a lot less fun then when I was a kid, even then I mostly swam under the water, seeing how long I could hold my breath for. 

"But you're so cute." She whined, what did she want me to prance around half-naked? Now I know it was more so the context that could decide whether or not someone was being a whore, but you wear bikinis to be noticed, whether girls admit it or not, they want to be seen as cute or attractive. That's why many chose to wear or act as they do, it's a subconscious thing to try and attract a potential partner. I don't want to attract anyone, I'm fine on my own and better off that way as well. Just something simple would do well for me.

"I just need a one piece, besides you have to buy the top and bottom separately, it'll cost more for something I don't want and won't wear again." That was sound logic, she pouted a bit, but I at least managed to compromise with her. Though the dress she picked out wasn't one of those see through kind of swim dresses, we compromised for a sun dress I could wear and walk around in. It was simple and white, but I liked the color white. It held a world of possibility, plus it was one of the cheaper ones around. This was going to be another thing I wasn't going to wear that often, I didn't wear dresses, it was just awkward for me. 

"I still think the blue one with all of those flowers was really nice, especially for you." It was also about five dollars more and less fabric, this one at least fell to my knees, even if it was built more like a halter top, thankfully the back was in tack, it had a zipper down it, but I never had much trouble with those.

"This will be fine." I had the basics of what I needed, sun screen, some sandals, and a few other things, enough for two days and to keep mom semi-happy. She probably wished I was more girly, maybe I would be, but really I wasn't sure. Kimi was always more of mom's shopping buddy, I stuck around dad and listened to his art stories more and studied what he did. Though art could be messy with some of the ways dad did it. When we got back home I was finally allowed to start packing things for tomorrow. They were going to come by and pick me up as far as I knew, and Haruhi had managed to get out of wearing a swimsuit all together in order to keep her secret, since because of the recent vacation, they were taking the girls on this one, so that they didn't lose more potential money by ignoring them further. Though packing didn't take as long as I hoped, I started to double check and make sure I had things I needed, I made sure to grab the camera and pack it for a few beach pictures for myself and of the club, also my sketch book, I probably wouldn't use it much, but I get the itch to draw whenever I don't have it. However with not much else to do I ended up lying down on my bed, but I started thinking again. The beach was always more Kimi's thing, with me following behind her, I was always second, I didn't make the decisions, I just followed her. I never was much of a leader, and even now I gave up the role to become a loner instead. That was a thrown that belonged to a dead queen. 

"Kokoro~" A cheerful voice entered the air, and I opened my eyes, I must have fallen asleep, looking around, I glanced at my clock, it was time to get up. I must have slept for longer than I originally thought.

"Your friend Haruhi called and said that they'll be on their way soon." It took me a moment to remember just what she was talking about and I wondered why they would be coming here, but I quickly got my senses back. I feel like I just blacked out for a week of my life. At least the only place I had to go was to the beach today, I'm just glad mom woke me up instead of them barging into my house and room.

"Okay, I'll get up and change." I needed to get ready. I took a quick shower and changed clothes, even then they weren't there yet so I rechecked my bags to make sure I wasn't forgetting anything, but I seemed to have what I wanted to bring. It was about fifteen more minutes before they actually showed up, it looked like it was finally time to head to the beach again. It was the first time in two years, mom stopped going after the last trip when she realized I wasn't going to leave the room, let alone have fun. I wonder if this time will be any different though. At least with this crowd, I could at least hope that it was going to be interesting or strange in some way or another, even if it might not always turn out to be in the greatest way.