Hostage

12

So today I got some very bad news, I'm moving, great right?
Regan: where?
Mom: where what
I was sitting at my kitchen table damn near in tears
Regan: where are u taking me
Mom: to Toronto
Regan: you know, I'm sorry that I didn't tell u, but u made it that way, you hear me? I did this for u, so u didn't freak out or stress out ya know? I kept everything inside for u and this is how I'm treated, if I would've known that it would lead to this I would've told u but u haven't made it easy at all.
Mom: it wasn't fair, I didn't plan on u being like this.
Regan: it wasn't easy feeling like a disappointment either!
I got up and walked into my room and started packing.
(Time skip)
I was driving with Billie, I have to tell her.
Billie: you seem sad baby, what's wrong?
I burst into tears, fuck I messed up.
Billie: Baby no
She pulled over and hugged me.
Regan: my moms moving me to Toronto, because she wants me to have a clean slate.
Billie: what! That's not ok!
Regan: I don't wanna leave u Bil
Billie: I know, but...maybe it'll be good for u.
Regan: I won't get better without u
Billie: you will and you'll move on, we are only 17 baby, things happen and people break apart no matter how in love they really are.
Regan: don't you say that!
I was mad, how could she be so calm, does she really love me?
Billie: Regan I love u but if u need to get better, u need to get better.
Regan: not without u Billie, how am I supposed to get better without u!
Billie: you will, and u won't love me, you'll forget me once u start your own life, go to college and meet someone better than me...
Regan: I want a life with u
Billie: I am not the one for u baby...
I couldn't even look at her, if I did I'd cry again.
Regan: take me home.
She just drove and didn't say anything. Until we pulled up to my house.
Billie: when are u leaving
Regan: tomorrow...
Billie: I'll say my goodbyes now.
We both got out of the car and she hugged me, so tight.
Billie: I love you.
Regan: I love u too
I started to ball my eyes out, my mom was at the window looking at us, at this point I don't care.
Regan: I don't wanna leave u!
Billie: I know
She was crying too, this isn't fair, not at all.
Billie: you have to promise me something
I nod
Billie: that you'll eventually forget me please
Regan: why?! Why would I do that?!
Billie: it would be better for me
She was a mess like me at this point.
Regan: I'll always love you
Billie: good bye baby
She broke the hug and I looked at her bet face one more time before she got in her car blowing a kiss and driving away. I dropped to the ground not planning on getting up. I looked at my mother while sobbing and she was crying too, why should she be crying right now! I lost my baby girl because of her and she's crying?!?. I got up in a fit of rage barging in yelling.
Regan: why are u crying huh!? I lost her because of ur stupid idea of "healing" me!
Mom: I'm sorry ok! I just want u to be happy!
Regan: I'm happy with her and have been! You moving me will make me worse and worse because she's the one who's helped me through this bull shit instead of u!
I took a pot sitting near me and threw in kinda in her direction but not really, I didn't want to. I smashed into the wall leaving a dent.
Mom: why did u do that!?!? There are people buying the house!
Regan: to fucking bad huh? How does it feel huh?
She was shocked obviously, I've never been so angry before.
Regan: I'm not going with u
Mom: yes u are
Regan: and what are u gonna do about it?!
She said nothing, absolutely nothing.
Regan: that's right, cause I turn 18 soon mom!
I'll buy an apartment, I'll have to get a job but it'll be ok, right? I'll work after school, my mom already paid for my college so I can go to school for free.
Mom: I'm so sorry.
Regan: it's fine, but I'm moving out.
Mom: I'll give u money every week...
Regan: sounds good.
I went to my room and slept, that felt good.