Hostage

10

When we got to school we held hands right to my locker, of course people stared but I didn't care at all.
Billie: dude why do people need to stare like dang!
She made eye contact with a girl that was staring at us and made a wtf face and she stoped staring.
Regan: Billie their gonna, u haven't even came out yet.
Billie: oh yeah, I forgot about that
She smiled at me and got a little closer so she was out of site of people.
Regan: ok since u carry everything we don't need to go to urs, what's ur first class?
Billie: with u I think
Regan: science?
She nods and we head to class hand in hand
Then a bunch of billies friends came up to us
Maddie: heyyyyy....
Billie: what's the tone for?
There was three of them, they all looked disappointed.
Maddie: why are u guys like holding hands?
She points at our hands.
Billie: we're dating
Maddie: nah, that's not ok, let's go guys.
She goes to spin around and walk the other way when Billie lets my hand go and touches her shoulder.
Billie: it's a joke! U really think I'm lesbian?
Maddie: oh haha very funny
She doesn't even look at me, she just leaves me
Regan: Billie!
Billie: sorry!
She laughs and walks away
I never want to see her again. I walked out the door of the school running home, my mom won't be home all day so I don't have to worry.
Regan: fuck!
I felt like shit, she hurt me, the thought of her name hurts.
*buzz*
Billie🥰: omg I'm so sorry!
Billie🥰: please baby I'm sorry!
Regan😈: fuck right off
I shut my phone off and ran to the bathroom, filled the tub up. Got in. And took my dads old razor...and started going away at my arms and legs.
Regan: fuck u!
I was breaking down, no stopping me now...
I heard faint crying at the door but thought it was just my mind from the blood loss.
Regan: fuck u! Fuck u! Fuck u!
I was so far in my mind I couldn't stop cutting.
Billie: no!!!!
My vision was so blurred, she looked like a blob to me.
Billie: no no no baby
I could hear her crying, then felt her take me out of the bath and boom I was out, just like that. Now u can say wow drama queen much? No I've had issues ok and it's not just her, up to this point it's shitty friends and being alone.
I woke up but the light was to much so I closed my eyes again.
Billie: is she gonna be ok?
Her voice was broken, what have I done?...
I opened my eyes.
Regan: hello
I said faintly
Billie: Baby! Omg I'm so sorry
She broke down in tears
Billie: I'm such a bitch I should be where you are not u!
I looked down at her and she was holding my hands, my arms are all bandaged up from half way to my shoulder down to the end of my wrists.
Regan: no Billie shhh it's not ur fault, it's others, it was just to much baby...
Billie: no no this is my fault, if I would have just been truthful with my friends maybe you'd be ok.
She looks up at me with sad blue eyes, pain was just whirling in her eyes, like a storm so strong it's uncontrollable.
Regan: I love u
She smiles a little
Billie: I love u too
Then the doctor comes in
Dr: ok so we won't put u under medical supervision yet, if this happens again, we will. She has to stay for a few hours, to stable herself before getting up.
Billie: yep
He left then it hit me, my mom
Regan: Billie! My mom! She can't know!
Billie: she's on her way babes...
Regan: no, no
I start to cry, she didn't know I had mental issues.
Regan: no Billie no she can't, she doesn't know I have issues.
I start breaking down again just the Billie crawls in the hospital bed with me hold me close and singing.
Regan: she can't
I was calming down speaking faintly
Billie: shhh, another day is gone I'm still all alone, how could this be? You're not here with me, you never said good bye, Someone tell my why, did she have to go and leave my world so cold.
I was almost calmed when my mom comes bursting in.
Mom: oh baby, Regan!
She bombarded me and I felt anxiety all over again
Billie: shhh, she's stressed...
My mom nods and smiles through tears.
Mom: hunny, I didn't know u had so much pain.
Billie got up witch I didn't like for one.
Mom: please tell me why?
I was mad, she knows why, how could she not!
Regan: mom, leave, now!
She looked confused ass hell, so would I...
Regan: get out! Now!
She scrambled out all flustered and sad.
Billie: what was that!
Regan: Billie my mom doesn't expect me as bi, I fact she disowned me for a month and treated me shitty, made me think I'm a disappointment, and she has some balls to ask "why?"
Billie: Regan, I'm so sorry...
The doctor came back in
Dr: she's good to go.
He smiles and takes my IV out leaving me to dress.
Billie: I brought u some of my clothes, if u don't mind...
Regan: perfect
She hands me an oversized t shirt and shorts.
Regan: turn around
Billie: mmmm no thanks I'm good
She smirks and I roll my eyes, getting dressed quickly.
Billie: hot stuff
I grab her hand and grab my phone and leave out the door, I'm guessing my mom left cause she's not here.
Billie: U can stay with me ok?
I nod
Regan: can we stop by and get clothes?
She nods and takes a turn into my street.
Regan: come with me?
Nobody was home, guess she went back to work.
She followed me inside and I basically grabbed what I mostly wear and some other things then my personal stuff and leave.
Billie: babes, I'm sorry for what happened...
Regan: it's ok..
*Buzz* *buzz*
It's billies phone, it read "Maddie🙄"
Billie: hello?
Maddie: where are u?
Billie: just got out of the hospital
Maddie: for what!?!
Billie: to take my girl home
Maddie: huh?
Billie: my girlfriend tried to kill her self Maddie! Because ur homophobic ass couldn't leave us alone!
She hung up, wow, I didn't even blink, just looked at the road wide eyed, silent and scared, she's mad...
Billie: I wanted her to know so she can feel bad, if she feels anything...