Unbroken

Chapter One:

"You know that you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." 

Dr. Suess

Missy's Viewpoint:

How do you tell the one that you love with every part of your soul, even the darkest parts that should never come out that you can never tell him the truth of why I had to shut the investigation down when it had only just begun? How do I even begin to help him understand that I am always going to be on the run and that I can never have a normal life again, especially not after today.

I had no choice but to do what I was told. I knew why I had to do it. There are bigger fish that are at play in the investigation and it wasn't that I wasn't confident in Aaron to find the truth, but also protect me at the same time.

I then shed a few silent tears as I picked up my phone and made one simple call to the one person who would end it all. The phone rang once, twice, three times before the other person on the other end of the line picked up the phone in silence.

"End the investigation into Hiram Lodge," I said, "That's a direct order from someone higher up and well above your pay grade. Do what you have to do to stop Agent Hotchner and the BAU from looking into him and what happened to me. Make sure that they leave me in peace."

"Understood. I'll do my best, Agent," was all that the agent said before hanging up the phone.

I then began to cry even harder knowing the exact risk and reason why I had to do what I had to do in order to be able to protect not only myself, but all of those who were around me. I knew that I could only hope that I was doing the right thing. 

As I cried, I pressed the button to call for the nurse to come into my room. She soon came in and the minute that she saw me, she knew what was going on. 

"What do you want me to do?" She asks. 

"Get me out of here discreetly. I don't care how you do it. But I have to get out of here," I replied.

"Understood. Let me scramble a plan to get you out of here. Only question I have is this, are you going to be okay taking care of yourself on your own?" She replied.

"I will be. I have a nearby place that I can hide out at before moving on. It has all of the supplies that I need to take care of all the wounds that I have, but thank you for making sure that I am going to be okay," I explained as I looked over at her and smiled sadly at her through my tears.

She then nodded her head before walking out of the room and closing the door behind her. I knew that I could trust her. I have had her before. She was a close friend as well as someone who was willing to do whatever it takes to protect me. 

I then felt my phone buzz before I picked up my phone to look to see who texted me. My little brother. 

"Where are you in this fucking hospital? No one is willing to answer my damn question even though I brought proof that I am your brother," was all that the text said.

I chuckled slightly in pain. My brother would do anything to protect his big sister especially after a night like tonight. 

I then unlocked my phone and began to text him back.

"I am not going to be able to disclose that to you. Upper bossman said so or he'll beat me to hell."

"Lol, I like to be there to see that happen," FP replied.

I laughed softly before answering him back.

"FP, as much as I would like to see you, I really just want to rest right now. I have more than enough people looking out for me. I just want you to go home and get some rest. I am sure that you had a little too much fun with the FBI." 

"How would you know that?" He asks.

"Because I know Aaron and Rossi," I respond.

"Amazing, love that for me. My big sister always knowing what I am doing or where I am but refuses to let me make sure that she is okay," He sarcastically replies.

"It's for your own good, smartass. Besides, I am already annoyed with the amount of people who have already come into my room without permission tonight. But you can come tomorrow when I am not so pissed off," I said.

"Fair point. I am not feeling up to dealing with that attitude tonight, so I will go ahead and camp outside in my car," He replies.

I didn't respond to him afterwards because that was when the nurse came back in. I looked over at her and I knew that there was something up.

"Everything okay?" I asked her.

"Sort of," She replies.

"If it's my brother, then I already took care of him," I said before she stopped me in my tracks with what she said next.

"It's not your brother that you need to worry about. It's that agent that you need to worry about," she says.

"Which one. There is like a thousand of them."

"The one who is in charge of your case, Agent Hatch or something like that," She responds.

"Agent Hotchner, you mean?"

"Yes, that one."

"Okay," I said, "What about him?"

"He's here, questioning the staff as to who came into talk to you to tell you to drop your case," She responds. 

"Shit," I said, "Well, screw whatever plans you had. Just unhook me, and I'll jump out the window."

"What are you talking about? There is no way you are going to physically be able to jump out the window that way," She replies.

"You obviously haven't met me when I am determined to do something and that I would do absolutely anything to not only protect myself, but all of those who are around me. Now unhook me," I sternly replied.

She did as I told her to do, and I mustered all of the strength that I had in me. I grabbed my phone and I looked at her to see if there was anything else that I might have had that she set aside for me. 

Shen then went to one of the cabinets in the room and grabbed all of my equipment that was brought in with me and handed it over to me. 

I then said to her, "Thank you...for everything that you have done for me. Now get out of here before anyone notices that you are the one who helped me get out of here." 

She nodded and walked quickly out of the room and shut the door behind her. I then went to the ledge where the windows were and looked down. We were about three stories up, but I wasn't too worried about the fall. I knew that I was going to make it. Would it hurt? Absolutely. But did I care right about now? Hell no.

I then saw the latch to one of the windows and I unlocked it. I then pushed the window open, and thank God there was no screen. I then dropped all of my equipment and my phone. I then climbed up to the ledge of the window. I heard Aaron's voice coming from the nurses station. I knew that it was time for me to jump.

I know that it was probably going to be something that would be brought up in an argument later, but I had no choice but to go on the run. I had to protect everyone else first before me. I am always going to be last for now, and I am okay with that. I would rather protect them all first anyways.

I then took a deep breath and I then jumped. I soon felt the ground and landed on my feet. I then quickly grabbed my stuff before I quickly ran to the parking lot. I knew where a car that I could use was parked. I ran straight there with tears in my eyes. 

I could only pray now that no one saw me running, but I knew that sooner or later, they would know what is to come. I soon found the car on the outskirts of the hospital parking lot, and thank God, it was unlocked. 

I opened one of the doors and I got into the car. Putting the equipment on the seat next to me, I soon found the key in the glove box and put it into the ignition. 

I turned the car on and I drove right out of the parking lot, and soon got onto the main road. I have only realized now how much pain that I was in, but it was pain that was worth it. 

I cried as I ran away from the hope that I could have any chance to have a normal life with Aaron and our kids. That was probably the thing that was going to break me the most.