thursday 1:45pm
they were still at the picnic when soonyoung's phone started ringing
"here we go again" he groaned
he picked up but that time? he waited for the other person to speak "soon, is that you?"
"jeonghan? i haven't heard about you in a while, is everything okay?" he asked
"well you know, i got married and things have gotten harder since we adopted but life is great, i was calling cause something happened"
soonyoung sat up leaving jihoon confused "who is that?" he mouthed the question trying his best to not sound jealous
soonyoung made him a sign to wait and jihoon nodded "what do you mean she's dead? jeonghan, this is not funny, you can't joke about death"
jihoon could hear someone crying from the other side of the line and muffled words but he didn't understand, who died?
soonyoung ended the call and turned to him with an unreadable expression, "ji, my aunt hyolin died, the only person that ever took care of me is dead"
jihoon remembered, soonyoung had told him before something about living with his aunt when his parents kicked him out of the house, he also mentioned that they had fought and hadn't talked in a while but he still loved her with all his heart, he didn't give any details and didn't like to talk about the topic so jihoon didn't push it
soonyoung's eyes started getting teary and his face started getting really red so he hid his face in his hands as he started sobbing
jihoon immediately reacted and hugged him, he caressed the top of this head while soonyoung hid face in his neck
they stayed like that for a while in complete silence, only soonyoung's sobs could be heard when soonyoung finally broke the hug
he stared into jihoon's eyes deeply with his face made a mess from crying "you know, everything that could've gone wrong in my life, has gone wrong" his voice cracked a bit at the end
"i don't like anything about me, i might seem happy, an extrovert but i'm lost most of the time, i'm broken, i have you now but you know, i'm rubbish, i'm not good looking, i'm not funny and those are probably some of the reasons why no one likes me, i mean i have a few friends that are there for me but i never feel complete, i'm not important for anyone or even relevant, every single day i wake up and promise myself that today will be better but it never is and i'm honestly so tired, life is just like old games, it just gets harder and faster till you die"
jihoon had now teary eyes as well but needed to let soonyoung know that he was wrong, so wrong "soonie, do you know why you are my boyfriend when i just met you this sunday?"
soonyoung shook his head avoiding eye contact
"it's because since i met you, i felt like i didn't need to meet anyone else, and baby, you are so beautiful, you have this cute adorable cheeks and i can literally see the universe in your eyes, everything about you is so pretty, and i'm not only talking about your looks, you are such an incredible person full with amazing things to discover, you are talented and smart, your way of thinking is just incredible and your personality is so bright it outshines the sun, i know it's too soon but you are really, really perfect and i never want to lose you cause i would lose the definition of perfection"
soonyoung looked up and wiped his tears, he jumped and wrapped jihoon in a tight hug "thank you so much"
thats, when he realized, soonyoung wasn't ready to leave the world
