Shattered Soul

Chapter 23

Chapter 23

***Forty Weeks Pregnant***

Sitting in the clubhouse, I'm feeling contractions. Happy and Koz are staying close. I feel another one coming on and I grab Koz's hand and squeeze. "Are you sure we don't need to go now?" Happy asks. "They're still twenty minutes apart. They need to be at least five minute apart or when my water breaks. I go to stand up and get two steps away and my water breaks. I look at Happy and say "Now we can go." The guys help me to Venus' car and we head to St Thomas.

Seven hours later, I am sitting in the hospital bed with Elena in my arms. "She's perfect little girl." he says. I look at her with her tan skin and her little Lowman scowl. Tig and Venus are the first ones in the door to see her. Tig takes her from me and says "Holy shit she looks like Happy." I start laughing and Koz says "Yeah but she's prettier." Happy walks over and says "Give my the Princess." Tig hands her to Happy and Koz is sitting on the bed next to me when Tig and Venus leave. I lean my head against him and watch Happy. I look up at Koz and see a sad smile. "What's wrong?" I ask. He looks at me and says "Just wishing she was mine." He kisses me softly and I ask "What about when she turns one, we start trying?" He looks at me and says "Yeah. Okay." Kissing me softly he says "I love you." I smile and say "I love you too." I look back at Happy and see he's just watching Elena.

A few days later, we are sitting at home and I'm feeding Elena in the rocking chair in the nursery. Happy walks in and kneels in front of me. "Are you okay baby?" he asks at my sad expression. "Just thinking." I tell him. "About what?" he asks as he lightly strokes the top of Elena's head. "I told Koz I wanted to wait until she's one before me and him try for another baby but I see how he looks at her." I tell him. "What about this. Once the doctor releases you, we start using protection and you and him start trying. We both want a house full of kids babe." he tells me. "Are you okay with that?" I ask. "Yeah baby. I am." he tells me and I kiss him softly. A few minutes later, Koz walks in and sees us talking. I look up at him and say "Come here." He walks over and kneels beside the rocking chair. "Hap and I talked about it. As soon as the doctor releases me, Hap and I will start using protection so that me and you can try for a baby." I tell him. "Are you sure?" he asks me. "Yeah baby. I don't want to wait. I see how you look at Elena and I want you to have that. I love you. I love you both so much." I say as a tear falls. "Okay baby. We love you too." he tells me before kissing me softly.

Six weeks later, I walk in the door with Elena and start dinner. I have her in her bouncer, on the counter while I cook. The guys come in front work and Happy walks over and kisses me before taking Elena and grabbing the bottle I had in my hand. Koz kisses me and asks "How'd the appointment go?" he asks. "Good. Got released. We can start trying now." I tell him. He kisses me again and Happy walks over and kisses me and says "I bought condoms so we're covered." I just shake my head.

After dinner, I clean the kitchen and head to the shower after getting Elena down for the night. Standing in the shower, I feel lips on my shoulder and moving up my neck. I turn in his arms and Koz pins me to the wall. I put my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist as he enters me. Thrusting in and out hard and fast, I moan into the kiss as I find my release with him finding his right after me, spilling his seed inside me. We get out of the shower and Koz says "I'm gonna go pick up a few things." I lay on the bed and Happy leans over me. Kissing me softly, he puts on a condom and enters me. Thrusting in and out slowly, he makes love to me until we both find our release, him spilling his seed into the condom.

Koz comes back with my favorite ice cream and Happy and I are sitting on the couch ready to watch a movie. Koz sits down and hands me the ice cream while Happy gets me a spoon and we start the movie. Me sitting between the two men I love more than anything and a beautiful daughter sleeping in the next room, praying it doesn't take long for me to get pregnant with Koz's baby.