Shattered Soul

Chapter 3

Chapter 3

I have been living with the guys for six months now. My nightmares are still there but not as bad. Usually when I have one, I will either climb into bed with Tig, Happy or Kozik. Seems to be more with Kozik or Happy than Tig though. He seems to be gone more, taking trips to Charming, California but makes sure to call me everyday to check on me. Tonight was the worst. I woke up not being able to catch my breath. Once I calmed down, I got a drink of water and instead of going to my bed, I went to Kozik's. Climbing into his bed, he wakes up a little. "You okay baby girl?" I shake my head no and he opens his arms for me to lay with him. I lay my head on his chest and he kisses the top of my head and says "I got you baby." I fall asleep listening to his heartbeat.

The next morning, I get up and start breakfast. Once it's done, I head to wake the guys up. Walking into Koz's room, I sit on the bed and rub his bare chest. He wakes up and smiles. "Morning baby girl." he says. "Morning. Breakfast is ready. Coffee too." I tell him and he nods. Sitting up, he pulls me to him and kisses my temple. "Be down in a minute." he says before getting up and heading to the bathroom. I walk across the hall to Hap's room and walk to the bed. Sitting down, like I did with Koz, I rub my hand over his bald head and whisper in his ear. "Wake up Killa. Breakfast is ready." I say. He responds by pulling me down to him and kissing the top of my head. "Be down in a minute little girl." he says. I get up and head downstairs to start plating their food.

Once we are all fed and the kitchen is cleaned up, Hap says "We gotta head to the clubhouse. Get dressed. We ain't leaving you here." I head to my room and change before walking back down to the living room to leave. "Here." Hap hands me my helmet. He found out my favorite flower was a gladiolus and painted one on my helmet for me. I put it on and Hap holds out his hand for me to take to help me on the back of his bike. Once we are at the clubhouse, he holds his hand out again to help me off before dismounting himself. We walk inside and I head over to Kelly, sitting at the bar. "Can I get you something?" the prospect asks. "Water please." I tell him. "You know, you have been around here for a little while and I have never once seen you drink alcohol." she says. "I haven't touched it since my attack." I tell her and she nods her realization. I love talking to Kelly. She lets me say as much or as little about it as I am comfortable but never pushes me. Only supports me when I do say something.

"We have to head out for a little bit. Stay here and inside." Koz tells me. "I got her." Kelly says. They both kiss me on the cheek before heading out. "You know, I have never seen anyone be as protective over you as those two." she tells me. "Yeah, all three have been really supportive since my attack. They don't like letting me out of their sights. Even at home, they hover. I thought I would get tired of it but I think it's the only thing that has helped me through that shit." I tell her. "That's good though that you have that support." she says. "Yeah. I still have nightmares but usually when I do, I go to one of them and they help me." I tell her and she just smiles.

That night, Tig walks in the door. Walking over to me he hugs me and kisses me temple. "Hey Sweetheart." he says. "Hey Tig. Get washed up. Dinner's ready." I tell him and he tells the guys as he walks past the living room. They all head to the kitchen and I hand them their plates and beers before getting my own like we do every meal. "How was the run?" Koz asked. "Good. Clay wants me to transfer to Redwood." Tig says. I look at him and he says "You gonna be okay moving to Charming?" Tig asked. "If that's where you are going, I'll be fine." I tell him, looking down at my plate. "But what about Koz and Hap?" I asked. "They will stay here. Clay's wife Gemma is looking for us a house right now. They know you are coming with me." he says and I nod. "Excuse me." I say before getting up and heading to my room. Sitting on the bed, I hear a knock on the door. Koz opens the door and walks over to the bed and sits next to me. "Talk to me." he says. "We're moving. Without you and Hap." I tell him as a tear falls. "Don't matter where you are, you need us, we will be there. This doesn't mean we are abandoning you. You still have us." he says, pulling me into him. "You're our girl. We will always be there." he says before kissing the top of my head.

Walking back out to the kitchen, I didn't eat. I couldn't. While I am cleaning the kitchen, Tig comes in. "I know this is a lot to take in but the people in Charming are good people." Tig says "It's not that. It's just, since my attack, it's been you, Koz and Hap. And I have Kelly but in Charming, you are the only one that I will know. I'll be alone most of the time." I tell him. "It will be okay Sweetheart. Trust me." he says. I lean into him and say "I guess we are moving to Charming."