Mixed Feelings

Part 31

Previously

I can't keep hiding how I feel. I need to tell Ella if I don't then she will hate me. I love Blake so much and I need to tell him I can't and I need to tell Ella that I love blake, her brother.

Now

Ella's pov

Me and George are cuddling on the sofa on the bus and I still haven't told anyone about what happened to me and Max but I'm too scared to go and tell anyone incase he hurts me or even worse them.

I decide to go to bed considering it's 11:55 at night but I hardly doubt I will sleep because of to nights events but hey at least somethings good came out of tonight.

The next morning I wake up to my phone notification sound going off so I pick it up and see that on my fan account I'm getting hate messages say that I just want attention from everyone and that I'm not a true fan plus I know nothing apparently by this user.

I would go to tell the boys but I don't want to worry them about it so I block them like the other users.

Only two fans of New Hope Club and The Vamps thats knows that Blake is my brother are Mia and Rosie. i know that at some point me and Blake have to tell The Club that im his sister but i really don't want to because i know i will get more hate from The Club saying that i asked blake to say that and i should stay away from them.

I have one IBF out of the whole Club that i follow and it doesn't help with most of the fans that follow me gives me gives me hate, I even block them but they get their friends to start hate on me. It all started with this one fan that saw me and Blake talking and getting to know each other on night in the park near to where we live.

i decide to go and get some food from the nearest little cafe because why not plus i fancy something sweet like a chocolate cake. I see a little cafe coming up so i go in it and order a hot chocolate and a piece of their triple chocolate cake then sit down and look though my dms, only one dm is a my IBF checking up on me because she is the only one that knows about me getting hate messages, the rest of my messages are hate  like normal i open them to see what they said this time about me.

I open one message and the user sent a message saying you shouldn't even be alive no one wants you around and you to have this account. Tears started to run down my face i don't know why because it true no one wants me around, they don't want to say it to me because they don't want to hurt my feelings but little do they all know that my feelings are already getting hurt by these hate messages so its not going to hurt like what they think it would.

"Ella whats wrong" shit why does it have to be him, him of all people why. i quickly wipe away my tears to make sure he doesn't see me cry even though we're dating I want to be strong in front of him and everyone else.

"hey G whats up" i ask him trying to hide that i've been crying.

"first i was just wondering where you went and second why have you been crying for?" He asks me with worry in his voice.

"Okay and nothing is promise" I tell him.

"Okay I will let it go but if I see you crying I will want one know what's up okay" he tells me so I just nod and we head back to the bus.

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Another part up. Might upload another part tomorrow I think about it.
Lily