Mixed Feelings

Part 45

Previously

Wait what it was all a stunt now im broken once again and this time i'm broken for good no one will be able to fix me thanks to them. I turn back to go in the mall place when i get there i run straight into the toilets and start crying my eyes out and hoping no one knows where i am. i google the nearest airport and I decide to buy a ticket back home but i cant leave until they perform tomorrow night thank god that they are performing in the same venue tomorrow. I clean myself up and put a fake smile on so they don't know that i know everything the did was fake and head back to the buses.

Now 

Ella's pov

I get back to the where the tour buses are and i try my best to keep my fake smile on my face so no one notices that i'm really pissed and just want to cry my eyes out. i get to the bus which me and New Hope Club are sharing even though Joe said we will be in a hotel tonight but i think we're about to go to yay (note the sarcasm).

When we get to the hotel Joe goes and gets our room key cards thankfully Joe got me my own room which means i can finally stop pretending im okay when i get up to the room so thats one thing that i'm glad about now.  

Joe gives me my room key card and i get in the lift to the third floor with my things. As soon as the lift stops on the third floor i go and find my room when i do i open the door and drop all my things on the floor and go straight on the bed and start crying my eyes out. Everything just starts replaying in my mind over and over and over again like there's no stop button to the recent memories from this evening plus the tears keep coming and i can't stop them. So at this point all i keep thinking is i'm only here because they want to use me. I haven't cried this hard in ages even when my adopted parents kicked me out of the house i didn't cry this hard but now thanks to New Hope Club and their team i am. 

I hear a knock on the door so i go and look in the peephole to see Brad standing on the other side of the door so i wipe my tears, put a fake smile on and open the door.

"hey Brad whats up" i ask trying to hide the pain in my voice but i dont think that worked at all because he looks at me trying to find a expression in my face to find out what's up with me but then he gives up.

"me and the guys are going to order pizza do you want anything?" Brad asks me with something in his voice but i cant put my finger on it so i push it aside for now.

"thanks Brad but i'm not really hungry right now but could you guys get me a tub of Ben and Jerry's cookie dough ice cream please?" i ask Brad hoping he doesn't ask why im not hungry but i want ice cream for.

 "sure. i will make sure i will get it for you is there anything else or is that it?" he asks me to double check thats all i want.

"thats all thank brad" i say to him then he walks to the other guys by the lift just as the lift door opens i shut my door and see what movies are on the tv. I look though most of the channels when i spot 2 movies i want top watch they both about to begin one of them is Bridget Jones's dairy and the other one is Harry Potter and The philosopher's stone and of course i pick  Harry Potter because im a big potterhead and harry potter makes everything better well for me it does anyway.

I'm halfway through watching Harry Potter and The Philosopher's stone when i hear a knock at the door so i open it to see Brad with a bag of sweets and it has a tub of Ben and Jerry's cookie dough.

"i thought you might want a bag bag full of sweets too as well as your Ben and Jerry's ice cream" he tells me and damn was this guy reading my mind earlier on i think to myself.

"mind reader alert" i saying smiling back at Brad. "wait is there any popcorn in the bag?" i ask now wanting popcorn too.

"of course there is do you think that i wouldn't buy you popcorn knowing you're Blake's sister plus my sister would want popcorn too if she wants ice cream" Brad tells me while laughing.

"thank you Brad for all of this" i thank him.

"no problem but i got to go because me and the rest of the guys are having a movie night in my and Tris' room" Brad says to me then walk back to his room.

Just as i am about to shut the door George puts his foot in the way so i cant shut it at the main minute i want to scream and shout at him but i don't.

"yes George" i say slightly cold.

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new part what does George want?

lily xx