Don't judge a book by it's cover

Bathroom Breakdown

I stood up from my seat and I bolt to the bathroom, I'm having a mental meltdown! I arrived in the boy's bathroom, thankfully no one is in here so no one can hear or see my breakdown, well, except for me... I go to the sink and wash my face then I look at myself in the bathroom mirror. My black eye is bruised but it's slowly healing, my nose is still a little sore and the blood is dry, my other parts of my body are sore, including my crotch was kind of bruised too... I hate being the school homophobic bully and I also hate being Larry's punching bag... I want to be his friend, not his rival. Besides, in the Bible "God says love thy neighbour, and do unto others, as others do unto you." (Which means, treat others the way how you wanna be treated) I try to be nice to both Larry and Sal, but every time I do that, I feel my dad's presence following me everywhere I go, I bully Sal which makes Larry mad at me and he beats me up. I go to the last stall in the bathroom and sit down. I pull out the picture of mom and I burst into tears. If she was still alive, none of this would've been happening! I pray hoping that one day, God will send one of his guardian angels to help me through my horrible life, so I can finally wake up from this awful terrible nightmare! It feels like I can't wake up, I can't breathe, I can't move. I feel trapped! I remember one thing my mother told me if I ever felt sad, I should write down how I feel and tell the person I need help, I can't bottle up my emotions forever...it's not good to that...so, that's what I did...

I pull out a piece of paper and then I write down a note to Larry on how I feel about him: "Dear Larry Johnson, I know we don't know each other that well, and you probably have your opinions of me. I thought... maybe if I told you how I feel, things could be different.... the truth is, I can't stop thinking about you! I'm crazy about you!! I think you're an awesome person, but... I know these feelings I have are wrong. I like you, but not the way you are with Sal, like best friends... I...I like you more than a friend! But, if I tell these feelings, you won't like me and you'll judge me... it's not the way a boy should feel, shame swallows me whole just writing this...My father would kill me, but I can't live in his shadow forever. I just..."
I stop writing as tears fall from my eyes and land on the paper. I can't give Larry this! I can't do it! I won't do it! I crumble up the note and I throw it away but it misses the trash can, I head back in the bathroom stall to continue having my meltdown. An hour later, I get over my breakdown then I leave the bathroom and head back to class. Standing outside the boy's bathroom was Sal and Larry, Larry was holding Sal's stuff and also carrying my stuff too. "Hey, Travis. You ok? That was random when you ran out of the study hall room and went straight to the bathroom and you didn't come back for a long time..." Sallyface told me,
"I-I-i-I'm Fine... I just felt sick..." I mumbled, "Yea, Ms. Kimchi made us dissect a frog earlier. I bet she's making us do a pig tomorrow...." Larry said.  I nervously laugh. "Y-y-yea, That was fucking gross!" Even though Larry threw up during that class, he still looked cool and brave. Sal just dissected it like he was killing someone which was... kind of creepy... I was staring at Larry as I gave him a small smile as my face turns a little bit red, which Larry and Sal noticed.

"Dude...What are you staring at?" Larry asked. My face turns super bright red as I froze in embarrassment. "Shit!! shit!! shit!! I can't let them know!!! They can't know!!! Say something you fucking moron!!!!!!" I thought in a panic.  "Nothing! I'm not staring at your ugly ass! Take a shower Smokey!" I said, I snatched my books out of Sal's hands then I shove him in a locker and I quickly speed off to my next class. "HEY!!!! YOU ARE FUCKING DEAD TRAVIS!!!! Sal, hold my books!"  Larry shouted angrily as he handed Sal his textbooks then he chased after me. SHIT!!! FUCK!!!! DAMN!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!! I shouldn't have done that!!!! Larry is gonna destroy me!!! I ran past everyone in the busy hallway and try to find a little place to hide, but every time I run, Larry can run faster!  I can hear his presence moving faster and faster towards me. I turn around to see where Larry is, and when I see Larry is almost one step behind me, I then run, Larry chases after me. I pick up the pace as I sprint down the school hallway as I can feel my heart racing very quickly.