Oblivion

9 - Tied with the past

A whole full week without Jirro and his gang hanging around, flirting around and making me feel worthless. Nate's been with me 24/7 and its working because I am happy when he is around. Nothing beats his extraordinary dates and special ways for me to smile and be happy. We went to couple of bars, dated in few good restaus and the spectacular concert date that I've really enjoyed.

But I had to admit, I miss Jirro and his dog, his gang and of course the kisses and those times we argue and curse with each other.

Though there are times that you know, I want to kill him.. literally. He's always making me feel safe and accompanied. Well, those were the times before I confessed with the wrong guy. He's always so mean and badass. But I could feel that deep inside that he is serious, sweet and caring.

There is just something between those attitudes that's making him so mysterious. I think he has some sort of a secret or something like that. Or something that I shouldn't know or should know.

After I've confessed with the great Nathan, everything changed dramatically. The 'bouncing ball' incident was the last time I've heard about the gangster. He actually skipped our classes. I am a bit scared because he said that he's still not finished with me the last time we encountered each other. However, it all stopped after Nate and I dated seriously.

I thought there will be Jirro around making so much troubel and hard for us to hang outside or near him. The last time we saw him when we were together, he just ignored me and glared at Nate. But I saw him with another girl. He's actually making out with that girl in public. I acted like I didn't care but it actually made my stomach hurts until now and my heart pounds faster everytime I close my eyes.

Yes, I like him. But I know I shouldn't.

I am really hoping that Nathan and I will be in good terms someday. You know, I can learn to love him. Because he is good and I need that. I am not using him. Well, maybe. But I am having fun with his ways and his ideas. I like him too. But I like Jirro more. That, I shall keep to myself.

It's the rest week of the University. But we are still required to come to school to watch the activities that they've organized especially for the students. Each student should join at least one activity and present their attendance slip, price or trophies in each of their particular subjects.

I asked Nate if we can have the same activity but he said that he'll be dealing with something on the activity that I chose. I said that it's okay. But I'm still going. I decided to just join the painting activity since that's where I'm good at. The only thing that I am proud of myself aside from my dogs is painting. Well, it's my hobby. I like it more than cooking. Actually, I like everything that expresses thoughts and ideas.

It was scheduled on a Wednesday. But I decided to come on Tuesday because Amanda kept on asking me to watch them sing and dance. They said I shall go and look after them. It's already five in the afternoon and their activity started. They texted me that it will be held in the convention hall. It’s a bit far for a walk so I hurriedly went to the canteen to buy some drinks. People were staring at me at the canteen. So my instinct is that I’ll have to get my things quickly and run fast. Good reason for me to catch my breath as I sit at the back of the hall.

I think it’s the second part of the activity where a student will be the one to conduct a voice lesson as I’ve heard the other girls saying repeatedly.

“Hey. Did you know that a very hot student will play today?” Girl One said.

“Yes. I think he’s new here. I saw him riding a bike today and few of his gangs were pretty hot too. Wouldn’t mind trying to sleep with them.” Girl two said,