A HighSchool Bet G.B.D.

Loner

I woke up to my mom shaking me, "Hayden, get up hun" she said. I sighed and sat up, "where's Grayson at?" She asked, I rubbed my eyes and yawned. "I don't know"

"Oh okay, I get off early tonight you wanna go do something?" She said smiling, I smiled back "yeah,"

It's been so long since I've been able to just hang out with my mom, I'm actually super excited.

She kissed the top of my head and hurried out, "love you!" She hollered, "love you too!!" I hollered back, I got up and stretched.

I grabbed my towel and walked to my bathroom, I turned on my shower to a warm temperature and removed my clothing.
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I put on:

I put my products in my hair so my curls were tamed and applied my makeup, and I looked like myself again.

I got up and tossed my backpack over my shoulder with my keys in my hand, I jogged downstairs and started making me ice coffee.

When I finished, I grabbed me a apple and hurried out the door, I unlocked my car and opened my car door throwing my bag to the passenger seat, I missed my car.
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I grabbed my backpack and my coffee and got out of my car, it's like the first in a long time where I don't feel like everyone's eyes are on me, I walked to the school and saw Grayson talking to his friends, they waved to me and I gave a small wave back.

Grayson ignored me, which I expected to be honest. It kind of sucks, like my stomach still gets butterflies of the thought of him. But i know these feelings shouldn't last long, I mean we are basically done talking to each other. I feel like we dropped each other to fast, like he asked me to come over and I fell asleep in his arms then he told me the deal is done and he doesn't think we should talk to each other? Like wth? What happened to the dance plan or whatever?

I opened the school doors and went in.
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I sat down at some table, I just realized I have no one else to sit by, lunch for now on is gonna be long.

I took a bite out of my apple, and pulled out one my sketch books and started drawing. I do draw on my free time, it's something I really enjoy.

I feel like I've not had time to just sit and draw, as I was drawing I felt someone's eyes on me. I looked around and finally saw Grayson, as soon as I caught him he quickly looked away. I ignored it and continued with my sketch's.

These past weeks don't even seem realistic, everything happened to fast. I lost my lifetime best friend, fake dated the boy that dated my bully and got close to him, then stopped talking to him. Like for real?

My phone vibrated in my backpocket, I grabbed it and it was a message from my mom.

I grabbed my stuff and headed out the doors to my locker.
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I jogged to my moms car she rolled down her window and bent down, "I drove my car, so were we going?" I asked.

"Isn't that dance next weekend?" She asked, I wanted to lie and act like there wasn't any dance but I can't lie to my mom, "Yeah, I didn't plan on going" I sighed, running my fingers through my hair.

"Your going, you'll regret it when you older," she said giving me one of her sweet smiles, "fine." I groaned, I walked away, "meet me at the dress store downtown! The one I always go to!" She hollered out her window.

I gave her a thumbs up and walked to my car.
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I parked my car next to my moms car, I grabbed my keys and got out locking my car.

I walked to her door she was on the phone, she mouthed to me 'just hold on a minute' I nodded and kneeled down to her window.

My mom looked fairly young, like she looks like she could be my sister. I mean she is fairly young she is 38, she had me when she was 21, my father left her when she told him she was pregnant and never came back. They dated for the longest time, my mom said she was crushed. She told me that I made her happy again, and I never want to let her down.

My mom dated a few guys here and there but she isn't worried about a relationship. She tells me it's not her biggest worry or concern.

But I think she would be happier and nicer on her to at least go on dates or even spend more time with her friends than she does.

"You ready?" She said, I cut out of my thoughts and gave her a small smile and backed out of the way so she could get out of her car. "Yep"
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I've tried dress after dress, my mom really hasn't liked a lot of them and sadly me either.

A worker handed me one that was kind of revealing, it was kind of ugly too... it was gonna look worse on me.

I put it on and I was right, I look terrible. I chuckled and walked out of the dressing room.

My moms face almost had me rolling, but I kept my cool. I lied I bursted into laughter. "Hayden, you look beautiful in it but the dress is just not it" my mom laughed.

"You know mom, thanks for being partly honest," I chuckled flipping my hair off my shoulders. "What do you mean?" She asked, her eyebrows furrowed together.

"Mom, I'm not as pretty as you, or Blair, Maddie all of them." I confessed, she looked at me her eyebrows still furrowed. "Hayden, you are so much better then them, and in my eyes you are ten times better looking then those hoes, you are way more prettier and you have such a amazing personality Hayden, you might not see it but you are so much like me. If people leave you like Blair did, it just shows you that they weren't a real friend and you should be happy because you got that bad person out of your life, Sure it's okay to be upset about it, just don't let your confidence down" she said wrapping her arms around me.

I almost lost it when she said 'hoes' I mean like for real mom. "Thanks mom, and thank you" I smiled and hugged her tightly.

"Mom?" I said still hugging her, she hummed in response. "Are you Chapstick?" I whispered, "um no...why?" she chuckled lightly. "Because you are the balm," I giggled. She let go of me, "I should've left you at school" she chuckled.

"Balm? Really? Don't ever use that on someone Renaé" she laughed, I chuckled. "Are we done trying dresses?" I whined.

"I saved the best for last Hayden, I think this might be the one" she smiled, "so you are saying I tried on all these dresses for you to keep the one that we will most likely get last?" I said crossing my arms, "Yeah kind of, I just wanted you to see more and I thought it was fun" she laughed walking away from me.

I groaned and walked back into the dressing room, I took off the dress I had on and waiting for my mom with the other dress.

I heard a light knock on the door, I peaked my head out and there was my mom with a big smile holding out pastel pink dress, it looked really pretty actually.

I took it and tried it one, it actually fit me really well and I liked it a lot, this is definitely the one. I walked out and my mom immediately smiled and nodded, "that's the one Hayden"
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We got home and I hung up my dress in the closet, and jogged back downstairs. "Do you have a date for the dance?" She asked slicing a apple in the kitchen.

I walked to her and sat down at the stools across from her at the island. "No, but that's fine" I sighed, I rested my arms on the island. "You should go with Grayson, I like him. Don't you like him? I mean I can tell," she chuckled, gosh how do I explain that.

"Oh, he's just been busy," I lied, she continued to slice her apple. "And I don't like him," I groaned, she stopped and raised her brow at me.

"I don't!" I laughed, she chuckled and just shook her head.