Will this life be any better ?

I'm useless

Izzy:
I woke up exhausted, my eyes are red and swollen from the hysterical crying I went through last night. After I had a long relaxing shower. I wore yoga pants and a red a hoodie as I put my hair down and applied some lipgloss before leaving the room.
As I entered the living room, my dad was sitting near the window reading newspaper.
"Morning Dad" I said , but he didn't reply , it's funny how I always try to be nice to him but he always treats me like garbage.
Suddenly I heard the radio " One of the most known celebrities aka Justin bieber will be here on Thursday , get your tickets and be ready". I looked surprised I wanted to go , and I knew for a fact that my dad won't give me the money to go to the concert, no matter how much I beg.
"Close this shit." I rolled my eyes and closed the radio. My dad hates him ,his music always makes me feel good , and then my dad screamed again as I zoned out from my random thoughts about Justin.
"Why are still here don't you have college to go" .  I picked up my bag and left, this happens every day I can never have a normal morning.
I took the bus and went to college , hearing my classmates talking about Justin bieber concert,
"Izzy aren't you going ? I know you love Justin" one of them asked me as the thought of not being able to go is killing me and I hate it. , as I replied " I don't know I don't think my dad will give me the money" . She nodded quietly .
The friends that I have are then type of friends, act like they are really close to me but the real thing that they laugh about my life , my background , everything that I ever been through.
Lilly said " I feel bad that you're not going" , I smiled and said maybe next time , milly said "I may tell my dad to give me the money and bring ticktes for all of us " ,
"but wouldn't that be a problem ? " I asked , "No my dad is okay with that" I nodded and smiled thinking that I have a way to see Justin for the first time.

I finished college and I went to home , I saw dad walking outside with a girl , that what he always does just girls. He never stays with me .
"Izzy you better stay at home" he said glaring at me as he closed the door behind him.
I went inside and did some of my homework , I opened the tv and watched the vampire dairies.

As the time went by, I was bored and had no one to talk to , so I decided to have a little walk to the park , I put my jumper on and my converse. it was a bit cold. I started to think how great the concert would be tomorrow, my phone ran interrupting my thoughts as I looked at the caller ID " Milly" .

"Hello" I answered, wondering what possibly could she want this late.
"Hi" She replied but to me she sounded weird, as if something was wrong.
"so what's up, what's so important to call for this late"  I asked.
" I just wanted to let you know, you no longer can come with us to Justin's concert" she replied.
For a second I thought it was a joke, but she was actually serious I should've have known from the beginning that it's all just a play and I should've let my hopes down.
I hung up without saying anymore because I knew she would've said " you are ugly" because that's what I hear everyday.

I went running to my house tears streaming down my face,I cried knowing that I'll never meet him.