I am getting tired of all of the crap going on in my life. Im like super stressed out and its making my anger issues worse.
I really still like certain people. My best friend, and molly and I really cant keep myself hidden. I still like my ex lexee which i know ill never get back. I have her back to being my friend. Im trying to be close like we were. I really dont know if our tryst is gonna ever be fixed. Im still basicly the bad guy for some odd reason and shes the one who cheated on me. I still love her. I always will love her. I just want to give her a second chance. She has a boyfriend which she got like a few days after me and her broke up which ticks me off.
All i ever want is to love somebody. I want happiness. My heart is fragile. The girl i like unnadded me from snapchat. My best friend has a boyfriend, if she didnt she actually would date me, and my ex still kinda hates me for breaking up with her. IM TAKING ALL OF THIS HARD. I FEEL LIKE IVE BEEN STABBED IN THE HEART.
The thing is im cute who wouldnt want me? Also im funny, smart,caring,sweet, fun to hang out with and im usually a really happy person. Who wouldnt want me?
My pain inside grows darker everyday. I might look happier then ever but if you really know me then you can tell that i am a depressed person.
I wish somebody would read this and just start getting to know me and then just fall inlove with me. I know this will never happen. Im not trying to be desperate but i dont even want a relationship. I want somebody that can take my mind off things for a bit.
I know i said i would stay out of dating for a bit. Thats why i want a girl who can get my mind off of things and get to know me. Maybe they would end up falling in love with me. My heart usually falls for somebody quickly. All i want is happiness. I wish somebody would give me this. 💞
Wanna know something about how sweet i am? I write songs for girls. Maybe sometime i can put one on here.
Things you should know about me
1. Im a great listener
2. Im honest
3. Im really trustworthy
4. I get picked on in school
5. Im caring
6. Im sweet
7. I am a little shy so if you want to express your feelings for me, go ahead snd give it a shot because i most likely feel the same way but im scared to say it
8. I show signs that i like people. I might start using alot of emojis or i might ask questions like on a scale of 1 to ten, how much do u think im a good guy? Or something like that.
9. Im usually scared to make the first move for anything lol
10. I am obsessed with tom holland.
11. Im a comic fanatic and im not afraid to show it.
12. Im almost 15 and my birthday is october 29th,2004
Thats just somethings you should know about me.
If you are a girl that wants to get to know me then here is my info
Instagram: maison_stuart04
Snapchat: maison_stuart04
If your looking forward to getting to know me then you gotta fallow or add me and i always add/fallow you back, just say "hey i read your wattpad story and i want to get to know you" and then i will have a convorsation with you all night. Btw im a great listener but i also talk alot lol
I have never done any of this before. Im gonna try to make a part to this anytime i can. I find it to be a easier way to express my true feelings.
Anybody who reads this can be apart of my family. I will take care of you. I will keep in touch with you and i will be there for you. Any time you need help with anything just message me. I might not be there exactly on time but i will be there to help you anytime i can. Guys i really need you to share this story with others make sure they read about how my life is.
I feel alot better. 1 person contacted me on here because they read apart to this and he cchecks up on me alot. He is here for me and giving me advice. Thank you G_H_Comer for all of the help.
I seriously do not know what im gonna do anymore. Everyday my life gets more conplicating. I make more foes then friends and alot of people block me on snapchat or unnadd me when all i say is hey. I cant keep the things i like. I cant like a girl without them ending up blocking me or unnadding me and i dont understand why people just like the unnadd button ans block button.
I tried sending molly another friend request and she didnt accept it. I really like her. I dont want to loose her too. 😭 I dont understand what is wrong with me. My main problem in life is girls. They all seem to avoid me. There is 1 girl i used to really like in 4th grade, me and her would "talk" but she had a boyfriend sooo and then when she was single she didnt want to ruin our friendship. I still like her today. She sits right behind me in science and shes still my best friend to but were not as close as we used to be. Actually when i had wifi at my own house we would nonstop text. But then i lost wifi and then i basicly lost our friendship. She also sits right next to me in math. 😭shes moving so she wont be at our school next year😭 im really gonna miss destiny. Im gonna try to get back to texting her because i dont want to loose the friendship completly
But yeah i really am loosing everybody in my life. I have been through so much. The only thing i can really think about is people have way worse problems then me and im the depressed one.
I think ive always had depression since 4th grade and ive never fully felt it till now.
Sometimes i wish i could have a do over. Redo this whole school year. Then i wouldnt be in this mess.
I never would have dated certain people. Never confess my love to certain people. I just want a chance to fix it all. I guess ill never get this chance.
Next year im gonna start over. Im gonna make the right choices.
9th grade is gonna give me a chance to restart.
Thank you to everybody who still reads this. If you like me talking about my craZ life then please just share this to other people. I would appreciate it. Also, if you want to get to know me than add/fallow me on instagram and snapchat. I will add/fallow all of you back.
