Its been a while since the last time i wrote. my life has not really changed. School is ending in a week and im ready for that. 8th grade was most likely the worst year of my life. I still really like that girl Molly. We have alot in common and we really get along with eachother. She isnt ready to date anybody yet and im really willing to wait till she is. I am still single and my heart was broke again the other day. It really sucked but you know what, im not dating my exes anymore 😂. I have started to show my emotions instead of hiding. I really am apperently an A** lol but i really do not care. I dont know what im really gonna do. I have feelings for my best friend who already has a boyfriend and a girl who isnt ready to date anybody.
im still in pain like always. i cant have the people i want. i cant keep the people i care for, i cant feel happy like i used to. ive lost too many people this year. i cant loose anymore. ive lost my friends and the people i love. i cant loose anymore. i wont be able to live my life with this. i would be lonely and afraid. I am already afraid, afraid of my past, afraid of my future, and afraid of my present. i liked it better when i lived my life in the shadows. when nobody really knew me. then i wouldnt have lost all the people that ive lost. its not easy, idk how my sister is soo popular, im hated, shes loved. Btw, my sister is graduating and going to college. My life is gonna be alot worse when she is at college. she has always had my back. shes always been there for me. even when she acted like she didnt care, i know she did.
i have always lived my life thinking i would never be known. now im known and hated by most people in my school. i have been through alot this year. everybody is always asking about my exes and everything. everybody is on lexees side of everything and she was in the wrong and i was in the right. She let people grab her A** while we were dating. She dated people while we were dating. She cheated on me and IM THE BAD GUY? OMFG PEOPLE NEED TO GROW UP AND NOTICE THAT I AM A GREAT GUY, IM NOT THE BAD GUY.
THIS IS MY LIFE SO FAR
readers of this, comment on what you think and if you want more. 😁
i love you all, thx for listeing to my problems.
