GLASS WORKS

Rants and Confessions

Okay, I've ebeen meaning to say this for quite sometime now but I've had some things going on in my mind and I really think that I'm going to go crazy if I don't bring all those thoughts out in the form of words. Praise the Lord. Here we go...

So, what kind of an author/writer am I? Here's the thing, I don't write because I have this undying passion to become a successfull and published writer in the future, no. I like to think of writing as an exercise or therapy or a very-creative-and-healthy-hobby-that-keeps-me-from-going-insane-and-committing-suicide. I write because i need an outlet or an escape and quite frankly, all the books that I mercilessly hog over aren't enough for me. I need something more so I write. Some people really need to realize that i'm not a professional writer and I'm not the best out there so it'd be really nice if you guys stopped comparaing me all those literary legends beause I'm never going to come up to that level. want to know why? Well, i'm only sixteen for crying out loud, I'm still learning. It's really uncomfortable when people suddenly start to weigh you down with all these expectations. It doesn't help, honestly. All it does is make you feel sad and the one thing you love doing the most starts to feel like a burden. 

I'm going through a really rough phase over here and it's so difficult for me to break it down for you guys because I honestly don't know anything myself. I feel so tired and exhausted most of the time. I'm feeling over burdened and pressured for some reason and I feel like crying all the time and I'm sick of feeling like this because it's so unlike me. I'm usually the person who's in control but I guess, that's pretty much how life works, it throws you in the weirdest situations and makes you feel pathetic. and helpless.

I've also been going through writer's blocks and it's been the worst so far. It has never been this bad, honestly. I don't even know what to do, I tried everything and now I just feel frustrated. I've started working on the next chapter for Redemption and I hope it goes as planned. I want you guys to pray for me and just hope that everything unfolds to reveal the best in our futures, In sha Allah.

Only Allah can solve our problems, wish me the best. Good luck and god bless you.

Much love,

~Eraj